darkartist81

Nothing really new to report. Things are really....really boring. I cannot wait to have this fucking cancer removed!!!

I'm just tired of having a band-aid on my cheek, like some kind of wannabe disturbed Nelly!!

Sorry, I just really hate it sometimes. And it's all the Fucking miltary's fault!! Those FUCKERS!!

Whatever.

I don't mean to be so negative, but my life really blows right now. It's good in all of the conventional ways...I have a home, food, family, one friend, blah, etc. But, what I am speaking of is my mental health. I feel myself slipping in here, my psychiatrist once told me that I needed structure and excitement in my life to keep my depression from swallowing me whole. I really don't know if she was being truthful or just filling my already confused mind with more nonsense....

I have to fight to stay happy, and that sucks. One thing is for certain.. I will not take Zoloft again. FUCK that! Just what I need, to be a zombie.

Guess I will just keep doing what I am doing for now, until my life sees improvement.

I am just so sick of sitting here, the cabin fever is creeping in on me, as my mind liquifies and I slowly go insane....

I need a change.