darkangelazrael

at the park

I know you feel safe with where you're at
But I can show you so much more than that
It takes a risk to chance true happiness
I wouldn't let you feel anything less

So remember scream yes and jump from here
there is no need for you to fear
i would never let you hit the ground
always endeavor to keep you safe and sound

I've always told you how i feel from the start
but words are too paltry for what's in my heart
if there were just a way to show you what's inside
it's something i can't change or hide

but i will always be nothing less than your friend
from now until my days here end
all i ask is i have your friendship too
and that you don't wall me away from you

i know that from my heart you have to embark
but in that heart i will always be waiting for you
at the park
NewRotic Records 2008


I had to go to a funeral today. A good friend of mine died in an accident. She was 33 and I had known her all her life. We got married when she was 10 and I was 12. Under the tree in the front of her uncles house. We had always loved each other and neither of us said a thing till the night before she got married. I am never making that mistake again. We could have had something real special but instead I was too fucking scared to do anything about it. Not anymore. I am going to be much more forthcoming to everyone around me and try to live life as if everyday is the highlight of it. I am still a little sad right now but the way I have been able to be there for her family these last 3 days has made me feel much better about the whole situation. I was once again the stone. The strong anchor for everyone. I think I do better in that situation. When I have no one else that is leaning on me for support I tend to buckle much easier. I think it is the situation that determines that. Anyhow I am glad to get back to work tomorrow. And wish me luck everyone cause if everything goes well tomorrow i should be picking up my new car (1009 Toyota) on the way home from work. If it doesn't go well i will be picking up my title for my existing car and trying all over again but with ford instead. I need a new car bad. Take care everyone and I hope you are all doing well!

Sincerely, Ron.