dariasatitude

we all want the things we cant have. Its nice when we do get what we want but most of the time it doesnt work out the way you hoped it would. i took the risk, that leap of faith last night, just like my horoscope said "i play it safe much of the time. and i may want to be as cautious as possible but to fight the urge to allow that and take that leap."
well that was a bunch of crap... i took that damn leap and now i feel like an idiot. Theres something i want that i cant have and even though i could have it if i wanted it, it would have to want me and from the way last nights events played out its obvious that that isnt the case. i understand all the logical thinking of it but honestly i just want to tell logic to go eff off...i want it and i want it now and who cares about the stipulations and all the things saying its not possible bc the truth of the matter is that if i was wanted id be had....

and that right there is the point...im not wanted

and it sucks...

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