daria

I tried to kill it all the way
but I remember everything
why have I become my sweetest friend
everyone I know goes away
in the end
and you could have it all
my empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
I wear this crown of thorns
upon my lier's hair
full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
beneath the stains of time
the feelings disappear






IT'S 6,30 IN THE MORNING.
I WOKE UP AN HOUR AGO TO GO TO WORK AND RIGHT AFTER CHUGGING MY BIG MORNING COFFEE THEY CALLED ME SAYING THAT IT'S RAINING. BETTER TO POSTICIPATE THE SHOOTING.
I TRIED TO GO TO BED TWICE ALREADY,WITH THE ONLY RESULT OF STARING THE WHITE CELING IN THE DARKNESS.
TRIED TO CALL SOMEBODY IN THE STATES: IT'S WHAT, MIDNIGHT OVER THERE IN NYC? WELL I GUESS THIS WAS AN EARLY NIGHT FOR MY FRIEND.
I KNOW I WILL EVENTUALLY SLEEP.....BUT AFTER SLEEPING 5 HOURS PER NIGHT FOR A WEEK, THIS MORNING IT WAS VERY HARD TO GET UP.
AND I HAVE TO SEE SOMEBODY FOR LUNCH. AND IT'S GETTING CLOSE. IN MY MIND.AND I WANT MORE COFFEE BUT I KNOW I CAN'T DRINK IT. AND YES, I DO WAKE UP IN THIS STATE OF MIND EVERYDAY. YES, I NEED TO REST OR THE WRINKLES AROUND MY EYES WILLGET WORSE AND WORSE AW MY GOD I CAN TOTALLY SEE THEM CHANGING ALREADY.
NOW BACK TO MY INSOMNIA.