daria

I know many of the girls on this site are or used to be dancers, and I know some of you could'nt believe that I am in some ways a dancer too, cose I'm way too fat to be a real dancer. but believe me, I grew up with the idea that dance was for everybody, and that what makes different a performance from others is the feeling and the ability of expressing emotions more than tecnical skills.
following this illusion I've been dancing almost my whole life (15 years out of 23...) and I still do.
that is, I should say, until today.
and I guess it hurts so much more if the one who is now rejecting my dancing body is the same that had tought me all that in the past, that crossing the ocean to run away does not look like overreacting.
there are so many easy ways to change facts or to simply forget, and so many of them are so bad for you, that they just remind me of some old night faded out like dreams crashed against walls.
yes, again, I can hear the noise of my dreams smashed against walls.
someone will know.
someone will guess.