dansquatch

I need some play. I really do. Maybe I'd lighten up some more. I'm working almost every day this week. Today I pulled 2 shifts over the same day. I finished a 10 hr overnight shift at 9 am and came back at 4 pm to work a 6 hr shift with no break. I have 2 more nights of work this week. I've been pretty depressed the last couple weeks, kinda on and off. I try not to think about it but its hard not to when I'm always alone and bored. Again, I try to just keep my mind off of the negative and on other things. I'm feeling a bit stressed. Oddly enough though I'm considering geting a second job. I was thinking I'd apply to the Subway down the road from me. Its close, and I could use some extra cash. Cash. Jesus, its like all I ever think about are work and money. Most of my conversations revolve around work. I'm always trying to figure out the best way to handle my money. I'm trying to be responsible, but I feel like I'm just getting really materialistic. god I feel like I lost touch with myself. Its weird to say but its true. And you know what? I hate money. Its too much of a concern. But its important. I dunno. I'm looking into getting involved in some new interests. Right now I'm looking at getting into airsoft. This is like pantball kinda, but you shoot each other with guns that look real and fire little plastic BBs. Its pretty cool. And I'm looking into getting back to martial arts. I would like to try Muay Thai. I just have to see if there's anyplace in Tampa that teaches it. And if there is I have to hope I can afford it! So at least this'll give me something to do with my time. The Muay thai will probably help me get in shape more, as well as teach me some fighting techniques. I think the discipline will help me, and maybe some confidence too.