dansquatch

I feel bad for my mom. One of her childhood friends was found dead in her home this weekend. Natural causes, maybe a blood clot. My mom is almost 60, but she does pretty damn well for her age. So this friend of hers is somebody she's known for a very long time. She was in tears Saturday night. I hate seeing her like this. I'm the only one she really has to comfort her with things like this happen. At home its my parents and I. My dad is a drunk, self centered asshole. He won't even try to comfort his own wife. Me, I hate seeing people I care about cry. My mom especially. I try to be there as much as I can, but one of these days I have to leave. I'm almost 21, I can't be at home forever. My brother is in Maryland, My sister is about an hour's drive away and has her own life. I'm the only she's got pretty much and when I leave I wonder sometmes what she's gonna do. I know I can't count on my father to support her. He's useless beyond material support. Besides everything he does is for him. He comes first. I don't really think he understands how to actually care about people. Not even his own kids...But that's another matter. And on top of that she was sponsoring some little kid in Indonesia, and she has no idea what his status is right now. For all she knows he could be dead. I gotta try to take it easy on her, and not argue so much with her about stupid shit. I don't think she needs any more hassle.