So I saw the Bouncing Souls tonight. They were good, they were good....I've been pretty down lately. I thought that going to a concert would help distract me, but I was just down the whole time anyway. I just stood around or sat around the whole show. I didn't even feel up to a good circle pit with my best friend. No energy tonight. Wasn't feeling it..I'm still depressed. I hate myself, I'm a fuck up, etc, the same ol' same ol. I go through this shit every day. So whatever. I started tripping all over this friend of mine about it, and I feel stupid, I should really learn not to do that. I think I pissed her off. That's what I do though, I'm a fucktard. I'm a loser. Same old same old. I need to find a way to keep my mind off of things. I keep dwelling on this stuff too much. Its unhealthy. I guess I'm just in one of my ruts right now. Heh, I had a friend tell me to get psychiatric help once. I don't think it'll cut it. I certainly can't afford it either way. Its stupid shit. I'm going to bed.
