dannydmc

Its 1:36 according to the clock on my computer; I need to be up in roughly 5 and a half hours in order to get ready for school, and I don't think that I'm going to be fairing that well. I only got 5 hours of sleep last night as well, and today was a complete disaster. Insomnia once in a while is to be expected I suppose; I don't often suffer from it anymore, but I had my fair share of it back in High School and I'm willing to deal with it. Two nights in a row, however, is completely uncalled for and insane; I don't understand it, I can sleep during the day, I collapsed of an hour and a half nap this afternoon, but for some reason the night comes and my mind has been switching into overdrive.
Back in High School my insomnia was caused, largely, but a mix of depression and stress. It was a rough four years, and I remember quiet well not being able to sleep at least one if not two nights during the week. It got to the point where my Mother looked forward to those nights, because I'd almost always get bored and end up cleaning the living room and kitchen. She'd wake up and the front of the house would be spotless; I think in her own mind she figured if she was going to have a moody son, at least she had a productive and thoughtful moody son!
This time around though, I'm not feeling particularly stressed out or depressed about anything. There is the general melloncholly which comes when one does not enjoy their job and, more over, feels out of place; true. But I don't feel depressed, and the stress level in my life is only moderately high; I've dealt with much worse over the years. So, really, I'm at a loss as to explain why I'm sitting up at nearly 2 in the morning on a school night, and typing in my blog.