dankrubis

My Grandma should die soon. Odd thing, this death thing. It should be more sudden. If I found out that I had liver cancer (which is totally possible as my outcome), and had a month to live, I wouldn't want to talk to a soul. What am I supposed to say to her, on her deathbed? "Hope you had a good one, Grandma." Or maybe the generic, "God will welcome you into his kingdom." For fucks sake, I don't even believe in that fuck. And if he is the omnipotent being controlling the universe, she ain't gonna be with him, I'm sure. Then again, she may have some good points, I've just heard all of the knocking-out-my-grandpa-with-a-twelve-pack stories.

Anyways, fuck all that. I'll probably do the usual "I love you grandma, you're going to a better place than this." Whilst my mind screams "Hope you did everything you wanted in this short, lucky life you've wasted. Have fun not suffering the agony of conciousness. Bye..."