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Edited to say I wrote this a LONG time ago...

The Day I Tried to Live

I sit before the fire, engulfed in darkness. My entire life is being played out before me by the brightly dancing fingers of fire. I see my birth, my death, and the time-consuming mass of nothing that took up the space in between. I see myself as a child,...
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machfive:
kiss
ninjagrrrl:
wow, that was really good...

is this a reflection on the meeting?
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Okay, so I decided to tell him that I'm moving away, because I thought about how much it would hurt me if I heard something like that about him from someone else. I'd be hurt that he didn't tell me.

So I sent him an email, just saying that I'm moving, I wanted him to hear it from me, and that I wasn't sure how...
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godlessnerd:
hmmm... well, i dunno, i don't really have GOOD advice... I don't think there really is GOOD advice in a situation like yours... I think though, that its best to move on, start fresh, forget all the things that made you want to be with him (i know its hard, and you probably never will) and find the things you want in someone else... there are 7 billion people in the world, there has to be more than 1 for you out there.
daniyell:
Yeah, I know you're right. And I have kind of found someone else. It 's really just that since his best friend told me how destroyed he still is, I thought maybe I'd try and ease his pain somehow, since I've managed to somehow get through it okay. But, I need to make myself realize that it's not worth it- all of this has come as a result of his actions. He's the only one who can resolve it, if any resolution is possible.