danipoo

All of my friends are married and have children. I am the token single female. Yay. Nothing says 'awkward' like hanging out with your married friends and having them get all lovey-dovey in front of you. Yack. What also gets me depressed (rather selfishly, I might add) is when my friends with kids have to cancel plans because 'the baby is fussy' or they can't find a sitter. Mind you, my friends are happily married and can easily leave said child with Daddy, but they won't for whatever reason. I'm all for family time. I like and enjoy family time. I don't like continually having to sacrifice time with my buds because they are under their spouse's thumb or can't get their kids off their backs for one night a month. Maybe one night every 2 months. I guess what I'm saying is that I feel I'm on the outside looking in to what used to be my 'friend circle' and its like I don't belong or can relate to my 'family' anymore. It's sad. It's got me feeling extraordinarily lonely, and I'm not motivated to meet new people because I'm less than 8 months away from moving. What's the point in forging new relationships only to move away shortly thereafter. I don't know any other way to articulate how I'm feeling. I'm drifting away from my closest friends because they're starting families and becoming 'domesticated.' I can't relate to that state of mind. I also can't relate to the other end of the spectrum. I'm not some drama-queen, party-animal, knucklehead. I just miss my friends.