danipoo

The fraud department at my bank saw the light and deposited the $1400+ that was stolen and all the overdraft fees that I incurred because of said theft. I now feel like less of a victim. I wouldn't want anyone to go through that kind of situation...I felt so exposed and unsafe. I don't want to feel that way again.
I should feel like I'm back to normal, but I'm still so out of whack. I don't have any desire to celebrate Christmas, which was my all time favorite holiday since I could utter the word. It doesn't really have any meaning to me anymore. Why do I have to wait until the dead of winter to buy a ton of gifts and bend over backwards to spend time with my friends and family? It seems so forced and fake. Why can't I do that in August, or any day in any month. Christ wasn't born on December 25th and he sure as hell doesn't have anything to do with the pagan rituals of lighting the evergreen tree or burning yule logs for 12 days. I believe that if you're a believer in Christ, his birth and life should be celebrated EVERY day. I get that celebrating with the people that matter brings light into the cold, dark winter, but why does it have to be so....geez, I can't even find the right word...hyped up? The percieved importance of this time of year is to blame for all the poor souls who commit suicide because they think they don't have anyone, or that they don't have enough $$ to buy presents and pay the bills. I didn't buy a single gift, nor do I plan to pick up any last minute either.
........ah, I'm ranting and probably not making any sense. Whatev... I guess I'll still watch 'A Charlie Brown Christmas' and 'The Christmas Story' while sipping on some kind of holiday libation with a satisfied grin on my face. For now, I'll just live off nostalgia of Christmases past.