danierin

I was raped last night
And now the sky is green, and the grass is blue.
My heart is broken, and my inside is gone.
What do I do without an inside?

I was raped last night
And I hurt.
I should smile.
I don't want to smile.
I have an eternity's worth of tears hidden behind my eyes.
I am seeing blood.
I don't want you to look at me.
Go away, and leave me alone.
I am alone in a room full of people.
I want to moan.
I must be quiet.

I was raped last night
And life goes on.
Why don't people notice that the world is upside down?
My body aches.
My life is altered.
I see you laughing.
You look so happy.
But I'm laughing too
So were you raped last night?

I was raped last night
And I don't need anyone
And I need everyone.
Men become monsters
And men become mirrors
And I try to enslave men with my sexuality.
I cannot make love, only sex.
I lost my body
And the very thing that hurt is what I seek.

I was raped last night
And the dark closes in and chokes me
And I have no feelings
And I am nothing but feelings the next minute.

I was raped last night
And sometimes -
Just sometimes -
I want to die.