dani

so that little "fuck the world" mood i was in the other day was the beginnings of a fucking anxiety attack. well...according to the emergency room at 12:30 in the fucking morning it was just "heart palpultations". but it felt like i was having a heart attack.my left arm kept going numb and my heart was beating wierd and felt just...wierd. about 3 hours later it still ddint feel any better and via the advice of my mama (whose first questin when i called was "have you guys been doing any other drugs besides your little pot tonite?". haha...), i got my roomate to drive me to the e.r (because andy was pretty drunk at that point. thanks, right).
long story short, the doctor seemed to be most concerned with my smoking ciggarettes and taking birth control pills more than anything else. even though i felt like my heart was going to explode and i am a naturally very stressed and anxious person. i say it was an anxiety attack. he says it probally was, but i must quit smoking.
somebody told me that they had the same thing happen to them 3 times and a doctor prescribed xanex. (is that how it's spelled?). but... fuck that. i'll just relax myself naturally.
so anyways...yeah, that really sucked, i have cut my cig smoking in half and after a few days my heart went back to feeling normal... so hopefully that shit doesnt happen again. it sucked.