New week, new post. I am trying to establish a pattern.
Anyway, it's 1 am and I have a 6:30 am appointment to have the shunts taken out my nose from last week's surgery. I can't fucking wait, because this just sucks. Normally I have an extremely high pain tolerance, but this is just miserable. They stick them up there to keep your septum in line while it sets and secure it with some stitches at the base. Well, the whole mess dries out and cracks and moves and just fucking ruins you day pretty much. Wake up every morning with this ball of just sloppy black blood and mucous in the back of my throat. Sexy I know.
Plus they shaved down the turbinates in the back of sinuses which I didn't even know I had turbinates, so the center of my sinuses have been letting me know all day they are there too. And I think the skin they peeled back off my septum to cut me has come looses. Nice. I have never taken as many painkillers as I have this past week in my entire life. And I am bitching, so you know I am not comfortable. dangerman + bitching = real pain.
So what else. Went out driving around earlier, running errands, and "it" happened again. The past few weeks, sporadically, I will get these anxiety attacks, I guess would be the best way to describe. I go out, and at first I am cool, but then I start to feel irritable and sort of paranoid. More like 'on edge' than paranoid. Just really tense. No climb a bell tower bad, but probably not normal either. A week or so ago was really bad, sweating, extremely jumpy, agitated. I can't even feel comfortable out with friends at a bar, which really sucks. Tonight was just more like in a huge hurry to get home. And then I do, and it all subsides, and I relax. Weird huh???
So..... nothing else for now I guess. Just finished homework for school, and going to nod off. Maybe hit the beach tomorrow. Ya know, if I don't rip my nose off first or have a heart attack leaving the house! LOL
Anyway, it's 1 am and I have a 6:30 am appointment to have the shunts taken out my nose from last week's surgery. I can't fucking wait, because this just sucks. Normally I have an extremely high pain tolerance, but this is just miserable. They stick them up there to keep your septum in line while it sets and secure it with some stitches at the base. Well, the whole mess dries out and cracks and moves and just fucking ruins you day pretty much. Wake up every morning with this ball of just sloppy black blood and mucous in the back of my throat. Sexy I know.
Plus they shaved down the turbinates in the back of sinuses which I didn't even know I had turbinates, so the center of my sinuses have been letting me know all day they are there too. And I think the skin they peeled back off my septum to cut me has come looses. Nice. I have never taken as many painkillers as I have this past week in my entire life. And I am bitching, so you know I am not comfortable. dangerman + bitching = real pain.
So what else. Went out driving around earlier, running errands, and "it" happened again. The past few weeks, sporadically, I will get these anxiety attacks, I guess would be the best way to describe. I go out, and at first I am cool, but then I start to feel irritable and sort of paranoid. More like 'on edge' than paranoid. Just really tense. No climb a bell tower bad, but probably not normal either. A week or so ago was really bad, sweating, extremely jumpy, agitated. I can't even feel comfortable out with friends at a bar, which really sucks. Tonight was just more like in a huge hurry to get home. And then I do, and it all subsides, and I relax. Weird huh???
So..... nothing else for now I guess. Just finished homework for school, and going to nod off. Maybe hit the beach tomorrow. Ya know, if I don't rip my nose off first or have a heart attack leaving the house! LOL
luciefurr:
I really do not envy your nose situation. I felt like I was going to die from healing my septum piercing, I cant even imagine what you must feel like. Also I totally get panicky when/if I get back out there we can go out and freak out together!