Man i hate this waiting. It's like im in purgatory doing some fake job Im ready to quit as soon as my license is approved. I want to go back to real work. It's true what they say, find something you love doing and it wont be work. I remember working 12 hour days and thinking only about 7 had gone by. The worst part is because the industry is so small I haven't even seen a new job posting since my license expired. Oh well good things come to those who wait. I just hate waiting, i can get so much farther just working my ass off doing what I like. I hate failure and to me I'm not "failing" i still have the job, just have to wait to go back to it. But all my short term goals are all fucked. This was going to be the year I got shit rolling for the next 5 years, new chapter, new city you know? Had my car for sale to buy a truck so i could get further into the mountains and camp for a week straight several times this summer. Wanted to climb a 14er. Visit more places than just the southwest. I just feel like an astronaut sitting at top of my rocket staring at the sky only to be told the launch has been suspended until further notice. For those who read this whole thing, thank you for listening, I'll throw some more pics up since i haven't taken any in a minute. 