A thought:
Are we, as loving beings by nature, destined to make mistake and jump into things we are not ready to explore. More specifically, I find that people are far too overtaxed in the love world, and it makes me wonder if everyone just jumps at any and every opportunity that reveals itself. Although trial and error seems to be the best way to grow, could it also be jading to our future eneavors, not just those to do with "love"? We're presented everyday with images of how life should be, and we strive towards that image, not accounting for the fact that it could be steps in the wrong direction. We're given a set path to follow, andmost of the people presented with that path follow it unquestioningly. There are things that we all stand for, but in the end how many of us will stick to those notions? How many of us will sacrifice for the illusion of "happiness"?
I've been doing a lot of thinking these days fueled by the prospect of a beautiful woman who is obviously interested in me, but I have been friends with her for so long that it just doesn't seem right to me.
<-Segway-> It also strikes another thought in my head: How many of the people that we surround ourselves with are actually what we make of them? Are those people truly there to be your friend, or do they have an alterior motive (be it good or bad)? I have had at least four people that were at one time good friends of mine reveal intentions of a relationship with me, and it wasn't what I wanted. I have rarely been one to seek that sort of thing out. I usually let the will of fate lay it before me, and I guess that's all that happened with those four people. It just makes me wonder about the things that fuel people, the desires that drive them forward.
Back to the original point: This friend of mine is confusing me. It's obvious what her intentions are, and I've not been quite sure what my intentions are until recently. I still find it hard to explain to her because I know things can't ever be the same, there's a new type of awkwardness that is born of this sort of thing. I know, I've been there before. I have to say something though, and everytime I see her we're around other friends, and I hate to make too much of a big deal out of it, but I suppose I am going to have to. I've always worn my heart on my sleeve. I make my intentions known right away, and it seems to work out okay. It's just a wierd time for our hero, Dane. Too many dilemmas, and not nearly enough time.
Maybe this explains my desire to disappear.
<-Segway #2->I'm thinking about a good camping trip sometime soon. It would be cool to hang out in the middle of nowhere, and stare at the stars. Sometime soon.
Are we, as loving beings by nature, destined to make mistake and jump into things we are not ready to explore. More specifically, I find that people are far too overtaxed in the love world, and it makes me wonder if everyone just jumps at any and every opportunity that reveals itself. Although trial and error seems to be the best way to grow, could it also be jading to our future eneavors, not just those to do with "love"? We're presented everyday with images of how life should be, and we strive towards that image, not accounting for the fact that it could be steps in the wrong direction. We're given a set path to follow, andmost of the people presented with that path follow it unquestioningly. There are things that we all stand for, but in the end how many of us will stick to those notions? How many of us will sacrifice for the illusion of "happiness"?
I've been doing a lot of thinking these days fueled by the prospect of a beautiful woman who is obviously interested in me, but I have been friends with her for so long that it just doesn't seem right to me.
<-Segway-> It also strikes another thought in my head: How many of the people that we surround ourselves with are actually what we make of them? Are those people truly there to be your friend, or do they have an alterior motive (be it good or bad)? I have had at least four people that were at one time good friends of mine reveal intentions of a relationship with me, and it wasn't what I wanted. I have rarely been one to seek that sort of thing out. I usually let the will of fate lay it before me, and I guess that's all that happened with those four people. It just makes me wonder about the things that fuel people, the desires that drive them forward.
Back to the original point: This friend of mine is confusing me. It's obvious what her intentions are, and I've not been quite sure what my intentions are until recently. I still find it hard to explain to her because I know things can't ever be the same, there's a new type of awkwardness that is born of this sort of thing. I know, I've been there before. I have to say something though, and everytime I see her we're around other friends, and I hate to make too much of a big deal out of it, but I suppose I am going to have to. I've always worn my heart on my sleeve. I make my intentions known right away, and it seems to work out okay. It's just a wierd time for our hero, Dane. Too many dilemmas, and not nearly enough time.
Maybe this explains my desire to disappear.
<-Segway #2->I'm thinking about a good camping trip sometime soon. It would be cool to hang out in the middle of nowhere, and stare at the stars. Sometime soon.
never is, my friend...