damned_out_loud

Sometimes I get this idea that what I should really do is take all my stuff and put it storage. Put all my current ties and obligations on hold, for the next... say... 3-4 years. And vanish. Maybe drop a cryptic mass email every few months or so, but never respond to anyone directly.
Get away from being me, from what everyone expects of me. Change my name. Be me, unleashed.
Go someplace completely new, or a few dozen completely new places, at that.
And then when (if) I ever come back, the people who really missed me in the first place would be the only ones I came back to... that all the rest would have lost even residual interest in what I am or was.

Because as much as I'm sure of who I am, and what I am, and that I'm free to be so...
I bet I would discover that I'm 10 times more free to be me around people who don't know me yet.

Because I mean, I get the feeling that the person who knows me best, besides me, is the one that's the farthest away. So maybe I should get even farther away. To be on the outside looking in, at the image of myself. Not that I'd change, I don't think... but I guess I wouldn't know til I gave it a shot.

...if any of *that* makes any sense.