I hate drunken sleep so much. But Saturday night I was so friggin wasted, and I crashed and I didn't sleep all that well. It was bad. Mostly because my head was racing with drunken thoughts, and emotions, and the latest fight that I had with Melissa. I don't know why I keep going back to her. I guess I'm tired of being lonely, and I want someone to need me, and want me. And it hurts that I am so replaceable. But, I'm finding out that I really am... But at least I'm standing my ground, and being strong and not returning her calls, or answering her calls.. in fact my phone has been turned off for 2 days straight now to ignore her. I turned it on only this morning to get the text messages I knew she would leave when she tried calling, all 5 of them, deleted them without replying, then deleted her voicemails too... It's hard.. but I'm holding my own. I want to stop feeling so frustrated, and I want to stop crying of this dumb bitch. And letting her tear me down, and constantly make me feel like I'm worthless.. Cause I'm not any of those things. I may not be a great person, but I don't deserve all that.
Anyway.. uh, I got a sound soother, and had great sleep last night. I went to bed with the soothing sounds of loons. Who knows what tonight will be, possibly the ocean.
Alright, I'm out guys.
Anyway.. uh, I got a sound soother, and had great sleep last night. I went to bed with the soothing sounds of loons. Who knows what tonight will be, possibly the ocean.
Alright, I'm out guys.
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So I'm sitting in class today and my mind is wandering to everywhere from the origin of the new and most popular culprit in poor health,"trans-fat" to why it is so hard for some people to realize that they should just make like lemmings... Anyways, I was also thinking of saying hello to my fellow SG peeps I have been removed from this past month, so HI!
As I am trying to expand my already gigantic library of music, I freely commission you to leave me the name of a band and/or a song or an album for me to check out. I would greatly appreciate it. Please no metal unless it's pre 1980. Thank you my friends.
PS ===> this is for all who have no idea what a MERKIN is... Enjoy!