damn_pretty

Whispering so you won't notice
You're not supposed to know this
I miss who you were, that person died
And nobody knows how this feels inside
I walk this wire in the wind
And I give and I give and I give
I can breathe and I can live
This cycle is no longer repeatitive

I am forever changed
My new skin feels so strange
These emotions come in waves

Overwhelmed with sadness and rage
Sick * in * my * stomach
And you show no remorse
Part of me wants to be okay

The other won't let go of the pain
Betrayed.

I will never let anyone in again
I will not get any closer to my 'friends'
I will be cold, I will be distant
Because I am afraid.

I will always respect but never expect the same.

By Lysa Denton.

Lysa.. she always keeps it real. She has been my friend since I can remember. We've had our ups and our downs. I wouldn't change her for the world. She is closer to me than she trully knows. She's someone I would trust with my life. Someone who I know I can always call in a crisis. She is someone who means the world to me. She is like family to me. Thanks for always keeping it real. I love you, Lys.

So.. today has been eventful. Laying around, as per usual. Cleaned up the apartment a bit, cause I know thats the thing that I should do. I've been slacking a bit in that department, and the roommates are really pitching in. Anyway.. it's been alright. So now, I'm kicking back, doing some laundry, and just enjoying my space. All mine. My own apartment. Something that is all mine, alone, and seperated. It's nice to have that. It's nice to have something thats mine alone. Anyway... there are so many things that I'd care to update on. But they don't really seem important. They got chucked into the " fuck it " bucket.

I know that a lot of my friends who can read this.. have been through some trying times recently. And I also know that they are dope ass individuals and they don't deserve the shitty things that have happened to them. So here it is.. another piece that has really helped me...

"You have to take the good with the bad, smile with the sad, love what you got, remember what you had, always forgive, but never forget, learn from your mistakes, but never regret, people change, things go wrong, just remember life goes on..."

Peace.. love... and lots of chicken grease.