dammitt

Have you ever felt like you could save something from a terrible fate but just because you didn't try hard enough your actions cost greatly? It seems sometimes that I can feel the world around me and still it's not possible to feel its pain...... A hollow feeling that leaves you a tad lonely and scared. It draws emotions that I haven't felt before in my life and it was a tad odd. I felt a connection of some sort. It felt like a cold chill but not cold enough to make me move.....but cold enough that it bothered.\


My insomnias starting to kick up again too. I really hate functioning on only caffeine. I feel like a zombie or like I'm dreaming. I can truthfully say that I don't care for that feeling....