so i havent quite understood what to think of this sight.

i use livejournal for my blogging, i use freindster and myspace to keep in touch with freinds and joke around with pictures, but this one i havent gotten the hang of.

honestly i come here for the gorgeous women, all the men do. its what gives the suicide girls their power.

this site is a celebration of diversity and sexuality, and thats a rare thing. at least it is in my world, raised catholic and conservative. Now im trying to branch out into new appriciations, and not feel too perverted and creepy. self judgement is always my worst enemy.

that being said, i have been here a lot lately due to the breakup of my most recent relationship, and i know it.
It just happened a month and a half ago, and the denial phase is over.

we stayed great great freinds, but im still mad at her so i keep a little distance from her life, which i tell myself is good for me and her.
not sure really. she depended on me emotionally, so it may be too harsh.

but trying to move on, i just went on a date the other night with a girl i met on okcupid.com.
im being honest and sincere, and im looking for something new and exciting.

the thing im most excited about is being in a relationship that has no previous baggage. every time amy and i tried to work it out, we ended up rehashing the same shit over and over.
something fresh is an amazing thing.

never did the online hook up before, and she claims to have never tried either.
shes great, i like her a lot, she seems to like me. the second date is planned for wed night, i just really dont want to screw this one up. she could be really good for me...
shes funny and really smart and gets 99% of me. thats a great start.

transitional times in my life, just in time for the weather to change, i guess thats how it goes...

-damienone