dails

well here i am, and here you are (who ever is reading this).

not much is new in my life, either than me digging my self more into a hole.

my days are now blending into one another, and im not sure what i am even doing anymore, my productivity lvl, is now down to an hour a day. the rest if filled with sleeping, eating, movies, working out when i can, and almost every night getting high.

im in huge pile of shit.

so i need a change, i need to smarted up. i need to get back to who i was when i first came on here, when i first met you all. back in a more simple time, a time when i would work 60 hrs a week, come home, eat and sleep.

this is my only option.

and i am about to ruin about any chance of talking to my father ever agian, just to keep my integrity.

but i am not a total loss.

i will regain my pride.

i will stand tall and be able to look at myself and see a person i love.

i will.