Today I finally broke. The isolation has dug its way into my soul. 
I hate this.
I hate this.
Hey, actually had a good day today. 
It's good to get out now and again.
Edited to ask, why the fuck is there lightning out side right now when it has been snowing, hailing and freezing rain all day? Crazy fucking Ohio, man.
It's good to get out now and again.
Edited to ask, why the fuck is there lightning out side right now when it has been snowing, hailing and freezing rain all day? Crazy fucking Ohio, man.
Another boring day behind the computer. Still beats sitting in my bed room back at my dads. As much as things suck now, they are still better than that cause at least I have direction now. Now that I feel good about me, I need to get out more. Eh...
I need another fucking band is what I need.
BLACK METAL
Now that I feel good about me, I need to get out more. Eh...
I need another fucking band is what I need.
BLACK METAL I need to start drinking or doing drugs or some thing. I'm so depressed so much and I have no friends, no romance and nothing to do and I think that would be a great way to fill all the sad alone time I have. Heh... 
niobe:
Your teeth sound really really painful.
Don't do that stuff, just come on here more and chat with me. It might not be much, but it could be something. IM me on AIM or Yahoo when you gto the time.
Don't do that stuff, just come on here more and chat with me. It might not be much, but it could be something. IM me on AIM or Yahoo when you gto the time.
My teeth hurt. Damn orthodontist shit. Ah well. It will be all worth it when I have my teeth all fixed up finally.
But for right now, they hurt like hell and I just wanna rip those damn rubber bands out. ARGH!!!
But for right now, they hurt like hell and I just wanna rip those damn rubber bands out. ARGH!!!
niobe:
Oh you have rubber bands. I was gonna say chew gum. When I had braces I used to chew gum like crazy after they got tightened. The price we pay to be beautiful.
Today's the day it gets tired. Today's the day we drop down.
Right now I really need my friends. I was hanging out with them last night when I was back home and I could really use that again at this moment to get away and take my mind off things.
Going to my dads Thursday. Gonna hang out with some friends, watch some movies. Should be good shit.
Better mood, but bored. I dont really feel like going out later, but I know I have to. I'm so lazy. Hehehe...
I'm so lazy. Hehehe...
"What if it were true that you weren't so blue and you felt like you could just do any thing, yeah.
But we're facing the sunset and for a moment it looks like it's rising and we are on the other side of things."
Some thing about those lyrics are so beautiful I just want to cry.
But we're facing the sunset and for a moment it looks like it's rising and we are on the other side of things."
Some thing about those lyrics are so beautiful I just want to cry.