dahmer

what the fuck? i went to bed just before midnight, and I woke up about thirty mins ago feeling horrible. problems is, i dont even know how to describe what the fuck is wrong. i feel light head and kind of dizzy, my stomach hurts and i felt like i was gonna vomit, and one of my eyes is kind of blood shot. the real problem is that i feel like i had a fucking nightmare or a panic attack or some thing, but i have no memory of either. i feel like i saw a fucking ghost.

i called my dad, but i hardly knew what to say. i mean, i dont even have a clue what just hit me. i half recall a few things. i kind of remember thinking about some thing really hard, and some thing about 3??? I half remember ACTUALLY getting up to go to the bathroom, and coming back to sleep on the floor by the vent cause i was cold. that was where i woke up all in a tizzy.

i really felt like i was about to vomit. i wanna know whats wrong, cause this doesnt feel good. ive been up for about 40 mins now and still feel kind of dizzy, and im a little afraid to go to sleep. i didnt eat any thing funny before i went to sleep. had a pb&j sandwich and a glass of milk. about it.

me and my dad didnt have much of a clue for what to do. he just told me to call him if it doesnt go away, or if it happens again. otherwise he'll just talk to me tomarrow. problem is, even if it does happen again or doesnt go away, what then? i could go to the hospital, but tell them what? i dont know what they could do. ugh. this sucks, and my head fucking hurts. i wanna go back to sleep. ugh. fuck this.