i don't know if you all have an ex, where the relationship ended besause of something you did ended it, and you regret it, but i do... there is this guy Moccia in my past, we only dated for like a month or a bit more, and that's when i got back together with my ex... well any way, we worked together ( while i was dating my ex) and the moment we met we had this "thing" hanging between us in the air... aka Major sexual attration... well i ended up breaking up with my ex and started dating moccia... we had the most amazing sex of my life between us, and our relationship was amazing too... i'm a bit tipsy right now, so i might end up gushing, but seriously, he had the most amazing cock ever: the head was twice as wide as the shaft (sorry boys if this is grossing you out, but this is my history)- we got nastier with each other than i have gotten with anyoe else, and truth be told i totally miss it. that was all like over 2 and a half yrs ago... and i still think about it. well about a year later i emailed him for the first time asking what was up, and he told me he had gotten married, and was expecting a child within 2 months.... i was happy for him, but my first thought was how i would never get to enjoy him and his cock again, we didn't tlak again this whole time... so yesterday i was emailing people i hadn't talked to in a while, including him... he writes back that he had a little baby girl, and how marriage involved less sex than he expected, and asked me if phone sex was cheating... ... ...
he emailed me agian after we talked on the PHONE for a little while, just catching up... about all the kinky things he remembered and loved about us, now you must understand that i was lover number 21 for him, so with that beautiful cock of his, i convinced myself our sex was nothing special to him, but apparently i was wrong... sex with him has always been my measuring stick for everyone else, and it has been with him too so i see... he mentioned/reminded me of some of the amazing/dirty things we've done, and i can't stop thinking about it now, but he's married!!! he implied that he wants to keep sending dirty emails/ having phone sex, and i can't decide if 'm going to join in.... i can't stop thinking about him even though i just told my boyfriend last night that i love him for thefirst time... i'm horrible!!!!
the sex is Great (capital G) with kev, but it doesn't compare ( nor has anyone ever) with the crazy, rowdy sex i had with moccia ( ps- kev is moving to florida in 2 wks for good to work for his uncle) do i keep talking to moccia even though he is married, and i love kev? or do i denie myself the obvious pleasure for the sake of both our relationships?! the aswer seems obvious: no. but i always tend to do what feels go no matter what... now that moccia's name is in my head again though i can't forget the biting, hair pulling, ass licking, 3 hour fucking good times we had though... damn i miss him!!!! i have to stop now, i'm getting excited!!!!
i love you though kev!!!
majorly confused/frustrated- d
he emailed me agian after we talked on the PHONE for a little while, just catching up... about all the kinky things he remembered and loved about us, now you must understand that i was lover number 21 for him, so with that beautiful cock of his, i convinced myself our sex was nothing special to him, but apparently i was wrong... sex with him has always been my measuring stick for everyone else, and it has been with him too so i see... he mentioned/reminded me of some of the amazing/dirty things we've done, and i can't stop thinking about it now, but he's married!!! he implied that he wants to keep sending dirty emails/ having phone sex, and i can't decide if 'm going to join in.... i can't stop thinking about him even though i just told my boyfriend last night that i love him for thefirst time... i'm horrible!!!!
the sex is Great (capital G) with kev, but it doesn't compare ( nor has anyone ever) with the crazy, rowdy sex i had with moccia ( ps- kev is moving to florida in 2 wks for good to work for his uncle) do i keep talking to moccia even though he is married, and i love kev? or do i denie myself the obvious pleasure for the sake of both our relationships?! the aswer seems obvious: no. but i always tend to do what feels go no matter what... now that moccia's name is in my head again though i can't forget the biting, hair pulling, ass licking, 3 hour fucking good times we had though... damn i miss him!!!! i have to stop now, i'm getting excited!!!!
i love you though kev!!!
majorly confused/frustrated- d
I've been in the situation myself, more than once, and I have to say that each time I went with the past physical relationship and regretted it each time.
I never would have thought that I'd be the sentimental type when it comes to relationships, but I missed intelligent conversation, the things we had in common, and the fact that I could have easily solved the situation by talking about it.
If you actually love this guy, then I think that's what you have to consider the most. If there's anything physical that's lacking, and he loves you back, you should be able to talk about it and hopefully solve the problem.
Good luck. It's a hard decision to make.
I dont want to preach to ya or be a hipacrit,but do this before u take it too far ,ask yourself.
1) Would u want this to happen to u, find a steamy e-mail from a past lover when u have a 2 year old ?
2)Is this mental masturbation ?Knowing your current lover is soon leaving/moving are u looking to find something to hold on to ?
3) How would u feel if this little game of rehashing past sexual romps where to completly change a few peoples live,(his,the wife's, the 2 year old ,)is that all worth it ?
I know "The heart wants what the heart wants.". I know im nearly ruled by mine....Sometimes i catch myself,afraid of the future,tring to hold onto some happier past...P.S. The past always looks better then it was,we as humans have a habit of seeing it through rose tinted lenses.