Why do I post? No one will read this, let alone care. I guess it's just for me now.
I love my boys. We're medics. Our soldiers look to us to keep them healthy and alive. I love my job and the opportunities I'm afforded because of it. But I hate this damn unit.
I hate that it's constantly bringing us down. Forcing way too much responsibility on our shoulders that should be dealt with in the higher ups. Yes, they're asking too much of us. They're spreading us too thin. We're tired of it. They keep hanging this deployment over our heads. They're freaking out because of it and trying to compensate for they're complete insecurity. We're not ready, and they don't know how to get us ready. They fuck up on this, they fuck up on that. And it usually means we have to redo everything to make them look competent. Specifically the medical section I'm a part of.
It's annoying. It's frustrating. It's depressing and it makes me worry about deploying with half of this unit.
I guess I just miss home. Knowing where everything is and being in control of it and what'll happen to it.
Not having been in the Army long this last name shit is starting to annoy me. I'm a personal person. No one get's personal in this unit. I miss having my wingman (as it's refered to by an Air Force brat). I miss having a partner in crime. Maybe I'm just estrogen deprived. Most of my friends back home are female and here I'm lucky to talk to a female for more than five minutes a day, usually just being some random women asking me a question in the clinic.
I don't know. I'm tired of this and about ready to just give up. I would if so many people didn't depend on me. My quesiton is: who do I depend on? Who do I go to when I need help? I can give myself an IV, but the times this unit is entering in I need much more than that.
Maybe we're all just going a little nuts here.
Maybe I'm still waiting for someone to see me. The only one that does is too far away and really doesn't care all that much anymore.
Fuck it, I give up. Getting close to people really just isn't worth it anymore.
I need to stop drinking so much.
I love my boys. We're medics. Our soldiers look to us to keep them healthy and alive. I love my job and the opportunities I'm afforded because of it. But I hate this damn unit.
I hate that it's constantly bringing us down. Forcing way too much responsibility on our shoulders that should be dealt with in the higher ups. Yes, they're asking too much of us. They're spreading us too thin. We're tired of it. They keep hanging this deployment over our heads. They're freaking out because of it and trying to compensate for they're complete insecurity. We're not ready, and they don't know how to get us ready. They fuck up on this, they fuck up on that. And it usually means we have to redo everything to make them look competent. Specifically the medical section I'm a part of.
It's annoying. It's frustrating. It's depressing and it makes me worry about deploying with half of this unit.
I guess I just miss home. Knowing where everything is and being in control of it and what'll happen to it.
Not having been in the Army long this last name shit is starting to annoy me. I'm a personal person. No one get's personal in this unit. I miss having my wingman (as it's refered to by an Air Force brat). I miss having a partner in crime. Maybe I'm just estrogen deprived. Most of my friends back home are female and here I'm lucky to talk to a female for more than five minutes a day, usually just being some random women asking me a question in the clinic.
I don't know. I'm tired of this and about ready to just give up. I would if so many people didn't depend on me. My quesiton is: who do I depend on? Who do I go to when I need help? I can give myself an IV, but the times this unit is entering in I need much more than that.
Maybe we're all just going a little nuts here.
Maybe I'm still waiting for someone to see me. The only one that does is too far away and really doesn't care all that much anymore.
Fuck it, I give up. Getting close to people really just isn't worth it anymore.
I need to stop drinking so much.