Sunday Mar 28, 2004

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Well, I decided that I can't really afford the tattoo I wanted just yet. So instead I'm thinking of getting a small spade on the underside of my wrist, possibly a pair (one on each wrist). Would be fitting.

Any thoughts?
kharnalbloodlust:
what would the spades represent to you? and do you think they'll have the same meaning in 20 years? i can't have an opinion until i know. =)

Saturday Mar 27, 2004

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I put the "hopeless" in hopeless romantic.



Also, a corollary:
I'm like the world's most retarded hamster. Dangle something I want in front of me and I'll spin the wheel until you have to replace the hinges, even after you take away whatever it is I was running after in the first place.

Wednesday Mar 24, 2004

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I don't even know why I try sometimes.

The only thing in my life that is ever not too good to be true is the niche I've plowed for myself here, and even that won't last.

I once said, "Live solely in the present, worrying not about either past nor future, for only being happy this moment can truly pave the way for happiness in...
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kharnalbloodlust:
past and future give a balancing context to the present--especially if the present is over- or under- whelming. ideally, there should be a balance of past-present-future where one learns from, experiences, and then plans ahead for.

i suppose "worrying not" doesn't necessarily equal "not being aware of" as i first read it, but everything is about context. if the big things suck, start enjoying the little things until you get the big things straightened out. frame your mind to make the things that you have the things that you're content to deal with until you get what you want.

good luck. =) (i just woke up, so that might have been incoherent. i apologize)
jade:
Life can't be made of magical moments all the time. Don't think of it as the great moments making the next seem dull... Instead, think of the dull moments making the past and future great moments seem that much better. wink

Thank you for all the comments and support these past weeks/days. It meant a lot to me to see I have wonderful people there for me. kiss

Monday Mar 22, 2004

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I get to find out what it's like to be a nomad for the first two weeks of May! Going to be living out of my car for 14-17 days, depending on how things work out. I'm definitely going to Lowell for several days, and hopefully Geneseo, but I have no idea how much more time, if any, that will leave me.

The moral of...
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oninotaki:
Hmm living in a car is way cool, but not really having a shower sucks. I would say come by my place for a place to crash but I'm not in the northeast.

Sunday Mar 21, 2004

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I'm back! Though now I'm also back to having NO time whatsoever. I wish I could go back and read the 4 or so days' worth of journal entries that I missed, but unfortunately I can't.

Had an amazing break, partially thanks to several of you reading this. The middle of it was quite physically relaxing, which was very necessary, and the latter was excellent...
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Tuesday Mar 16, 2004

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Any artists out there, I have a favor to ask. I would dearly love to have this redrawn with four leaves, preferably retaining some form of stem (otherwise it'd just look like a random Celtic design and not a 4-leaf clover). I technically also want text under it that says "Luck o' the Irish", preferably in some form of olde english font, but I can...
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kharnalbloodlust:
hahahah. your infatuation with lab coats is almost unhealthy! thank you for the nice words. i'll make sure that if i make SG i'll work one into a set for you. wink

oh, and i wore my own big green fuzzy jacket out tonight. they're the best.
doctashock:
anxious to get back to the lab yet?

Sunday Mar 14, 2004

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Awesome weekend. smile Damned glad I decided to go. I needed that. And thanks again to Stirfry for putting up with us yet again! Don't really have a lot of time to update at the moment, though--perhaps later.

It's good to relax. smile Now I just need a back massage and life will be grand. Like the ice cream, but better.


Edited on 3-15 to add:

If...
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mistressmissy:
damn that sucks.
i hope oni can come through.
antipode3141592:
yeah, people have told me that before.... hmm. maybe you're right surreal

dude, it sucks i couldn't go to the party. i miss you guys frown but i'm glad you had fun biggrin

Thursday Mar 04, 2004

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Haven't updated in a while.

Haven't really had much to say.

To sum it all up, at my current point in life, I've come to two (probably temporary) conclusions:

1) Nothing is ever remotely right unless I do it myself. I should never count on anyone. (Which extends to so-called "friendships," really.)

2) There's no point in bothering to care about someone who seems to...
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drknievel:
Don't sound so surprised. There aren't many people in the world that belong to our tribe, are there? smile

The problem with trying to explain post-emotional tribalism (or anything else) in metaphorical terms is that you create two obstacles: some people aren't going to understand the symbolism, and some people are going to confuse the symbolism for the object itself. That's why somebody has to find one universal, absolute, objective, irrefutable truth. (Of course, some people will even refuse to believe that, and there's just nothing you can do about them.) If everyone-- or even just some people-- could all come to understand that they all have the one most basic thing in common, they could quit being so badly divided by their differences.
xie:
13 hrs? oi.. and the parts while driving that you go "wait.. am i awake? shitshit, open your eyes.." hah.
hope things are going well with you.

Tuesday Feb 24, 2004

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I'm feeling a little better about life right now. I told her how I felt, and while it's not going anywhere, it hasn't affected the friendship, and the possibility might still be open for some future when her life calms down. But at least I got it off my chest.

On a completely different note, I've spent (roughly, give or take an hour) 20 hours...
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xie:
biggrin yeah, i haven't seen anything confirmed anywhere, but a friend found those dates through a HIMcommunity. oh wait..
*realizes that there is a US him site + checks there*
4/15/2004 : Tour - Bowery Ballroom - New York, NY
4/16/2004 : Tour - Theatre of Living Arts - Philadelphia, PA
4/17/2004 : Tour - Paramount Theatre - Asbury Park, NJ
4/18/2004 : Tour - Middle East - Boston, MA
4/25/2004 : Tour - House of Blues - Chicago, IL
i've only been looking at heartagram.com.. but hey, there's probably a closer one to you then.. i have a 5 hour drive.. eeek
drknievel:
So, what was the thesis about?

Saturday Feb 21, 2004

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Apparently I'm quite good at fucking things up. It's really quite a talent. There's just something wonderful about going from a snowball's chance in hell to getting a complete DIV/0 error about something one desires this fucking much.

What's that saying again? Oh yeah... Life's a bitch. Then you die.

Well, on the "bright side" (or dismal, depending on how you look at it),...
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