week 3 of being sober. Next wednesday night it's done. It's starting to get to me somewhat. I stop and kinda wish i had that fucked up feeling of the room spinning to set me on my way. Idleness is the worst. That's half the reason i drink, to calm my head and numb me to thinkiing etc. But there is no soothing now. I...
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stupidslut:
i BELIEVE In you! 
Well, i quit drinking for a month. Yea its kinda wierd. Wednedsay night in about 30 minutes i drank half a litre of rum on an empty stomach. This was nothing too new for me, mind you. At 5am i crawl my ass outta bed, feeling like death left out in the sun to rot, and strated puking on my floor. i crawl back into...
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hyenahell:
psh. weather is made by magical beings who live in the clouds. everyone knows that... now off to sacrafice a virgin to keep this nice, cool weather comin'... 
hyenahell:
rawr! goin' home to KY for ten days... get to see my family and very best friend in the world.
you should update more often... or are you waiting for your month to be up?
you should update more often... or are you waiting for your month to be up?
Yesterday i learned a valuable lesson: Never judge a gambler because he can barely throw the dice down the craps table.
I was sitting at the table for about an hour, breaking even mostly. Then this old guy walks up. The dice gets passed to him and he throws.. the point is set etc etc. Well at first i thought he was gonna lose because...
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I was sitting at the table for about an hour, breaking even mostly. Then this old guy walks up. The dice gets passed to him and he throws.. the point is set etc etc. Well at first i thought he was gonna lose because...
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hyenahell:
i actually went to the casino the other morning after work. it was about 5 am. i spent five bucks in nickel slots, lost my ass, then sat at the bar while my boyfriend played hold 'em. i had to drag him out. he's quite the gamblin' fool...
my days off are mon-thurs. my work nights are friday, 1 am-close, saturday, 9pm- close, and sunday, 9pm- close. just tell me when you wanna come! i'll be out of town aug. 20-29th, and can't do shit on aug. 11 b/c it's my boy's birthday and he's phsychotic about it. other than that, i'm down!
my days off are mon-thurs. my work nights are friday, 1 am-close, saturday, 9pm- close, and sunday, 9pm- close. just tell me when you wanna come! i'll be out of town aug. 20-29th, and can't do shit on aug. 11 b/c it's my boy's birthday and he's phsychotic about it. other than that, i'm down!
stupidslut:
rrrrrrrraaaar 
Last night's dream while parts are still fresh in my head.
There was a girl named Azure who i was very very attracted to some time ago.
Anyways Azure was at my house. We talked about some things, but I don't remember what. I was sharing a room with my cousin. I went in for bed and he was watching TV, i somehow got out...
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There was a girl named Azure who i was very very attracted to some time ago.
Anyways Azure was at my house. We talked about some things, but I don't remember what. I was sharing a room with my cousin. I went in for bed and he was watching TV, i somehow got out...
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hyenahell:
wow. weird dreams... i seem to be having some pretty vivid absurdly horrific/ horrificly absurd dreams lately. maybe it's the heat...
arg. Time to get ready for another day at work. Sometimes i just wanna sit in bed all day and stare at the ceiling. I think id be much more productive that way. Myabe something funny will happen today and ill have something to write about.
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stupidslut:
nipples
hyenahell:
*poke poke*
Drunk again. Nothing new. Work today sucked. Long day lots of stuff. Feet hurt. Tomorrow another longer day with lots of stupid bullshit. Monday ill be good. hopefylly xfering out soon. I have no more beer for breakfast/. this makes mes aid.
Talkin to a girl i had a thing for. About how we were and what now and all that shit. Im quite drunk and we are talkin bout our others. very very ironic and strange, shes jealous, i dont give a fuck. Life is good.
hyenahell:
they say living well is the best revenge... never knew what it meant. i always thought torture or public humiliation or something along that lines was the best revenge. meh.
xoxo, -Hyena.
they say living well is the best revenge... never knew what it meant. i always thought torture or public humiliation or something along that lines was the best revenge. meh.
xoxo, -Hyena.
So i've undertaken the project of wirting a history of myself. Earliest memories till present and filled with fun little ancedotes. The thing is that at this time there are about 2 people I would let read it.
To me this is funny. I am egotistical to put my kinda fucked up life into words, but then I hide it away. Why put it into...
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To me this is funny. I am egotistical to put my kinda fucked up life into words, but then I hide it away. Why put it into...
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hyenahell:
my friend mel moved back to be with her parents when her twin sister jules died. you might remember this from my journal... but before that, she was in denton, TX. i never got to visit her there because i never had enough money to go home to KY and to texas, too. so i feel your pain... the weird part is i later met one of my very closest friends in new orleans, who went to undergraduate school in denton. her and mel hung out at alot of the same places. i always wonder if they knew each other, or saw each other... in a strange twist of fate, i am thinking very seriously about going to grad school in denton. small world, eh?
stupidslut:
i just might try that aresol trick on the next one. I'll use caution though because the last time i got "trigger happy" on a bug, i ended up slipping in the bug spray i drenched it in and fucking up three toes. And as i was huddled on the floor in crap loads of pain, as well as crap loads of bug spray, i couldn't help but feel somewhat humbled as justice was just served to roaches everywhere! 
My job just gets worse and worse. When I first started things weren't too bad. We had more than enough poeple to do the job. We had the equipment we needed, basically things went smooth.
That changed this winter. They fired people. Most importantly they fired important people. One of them had been dealing with laundry services for years, had been in the linen business...
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That changed this winter. They fired people. Most importantly they fired important people. One of them had been dealing with laundry services for years, had been in the linen business...
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stupidslut:
how is someone gonna fire a 70 year old? why couldn't he retire? i guess he didn't work there long enough or something... thats lame though. and sometimes people fire experienced workers for crap reasons just so they can hire inexperienced workers and pay them less. money sucks. let's burn all of it and move under a bridge. 
hyenahell:
i slept all day yesterday instead of working on my paper that's due monday, because i thought i had to work last night. when i showed up at 1 am, the bartender that opened sent me home because he wanted to work by himself so he could make more money...
i wish i didn't have to work. i wish no one had to work.
"I wish that i had sailed the darkend seas/on a great big clipper ship/going from this land here to that/in a sailor's suit and cap/far away from the big city/where a man cannot be free/of all the evil of this town/and of himself and those around..."
I wish i didn't go off on tangents expressed only by lou reed lyrics...
i wish i didn't have to work. i wish no one had to work.
"I wish that i had sailed the darkend seas/on a great big clipper ship/going from this land here to that/in a sailor's suit and cap/far away from the big city/where a man cannot be free/of all the evil of this town/and of himself and those around..."
I wish i didn't go off on tangents expressed only by lou reed lyrics...
So I've been gettin out more lately. That's a good thing. Maybe soon I'll have a social life besides drinkin alone.
Last Friday went to the movies with my friend Stacie. Saw Shrek 2 (her choice). Tonight I went with my friend Angee and her son CJ to see Van Helsing.
Now Van Helsing was weird. It was good, but lacking that UMPH for a...
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Last Friday went to the movies with my friend Stacie. Saw Shrek 2 (her choice). Tonight I went with my friend Angee and her son CJ to see Van Helsing.
Now Van Helsing was weird. It was good, but lacking that UMPH for a...
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hyenahell:
i dunno if you tried to come by friday; i thought i was opening up, but the other bartender wanted to do it, since she's moving to brazil on tuesday. (lucky... i wanna go to brazil!) if so, if not, either way, sorry for the mix-up. hopefully we can catch up sometime in the future, eh? 
xoxo, -Hyena.
xoxo, -Hyena.