Oh what a tangled web we weave. Lately ive gotten involved witha girl named Erin. I've been really happy when i talk to her and stuff. it seems great. If this girl lived closer, if she was ready to, i would probably marry her. Well not that far but yea you get the idea.
Tonight she tells me that she will probably not love me sometime in the future. She will find a flaw and it will eat at her. THis scares me. It scares her.
Have you ever been gambling and you can feel that you are gonna lose big but you just gotta let your money ride anyway? this is the sorta feeling i got when she said this. It also relates to a dream i had last night in which i was hugging Erin. This stranger says 'this looks like just a game to me. some fucked up game you are playing" i told her, "it's a game i'm willing to lose"
I should probably go lay down and think this out, think about how much of myself i wanna give now. Most likely being the jackass that i am ill pay it no heed and it will come back to rip out my throat and to spray my blood all over the ground and surrounding area.
But ya knoiw, i've always liked to gamble.
Tonight she tells me that she will probably not love me sometime in the future. She will find a flaw and it will eat at her. THis scares me. It scares her.
Have you ever been gambling and you can feel that you are gonna lose big but you just gotta let your money ride anyway? this is the sorta feeling i got when she said this. It also relates to a dream i had last night in which i was hugging Erin. This stranger says 'this looks like just a game to me. some fucked up game you are playing" i told her, "it's a game i'm willing to lose"
I should probably go lay down and think this out, think about how much of myself i wanna give now. Most likely being the jackass that i am ill pay it no heed and it will come back to rip out my throat and to spray my blood all over the ground and surrounding area.
But ya knoiw, i've always liked to gamble.
hell, it's always worth it.
everything we set out to do, eventually, is gonna come back and bite us in the ass when we fail. but you're never a fool for trying. it's the fools who never take the chance.
go forth, guns blazing, no holes barred. love is senseless. it's never made sense. it never will. it's never the smart thing to do, and in the end, yeah, maybe we're all doomed. sooner or later.
but. hold onto it while you have it. hard. because, hon- some people never do.
love,
-Hyena.
love.
-Hyena.