Journal 24
Hepatitis.
So, about 2 weeks ago I go to the clinic to get a wellness pannel done, That's where they check your blood for all kinds of nasty shit. I was worried about diabetes, it runs in my family after all. Boy was I way off.
I go in. They bring me into a little cell. They call it a room. It is...
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Hepatitis.
So, about 2 weeks ago I go to the clinic to get a wellness pannel done, That's where they check your blood for all kinds of nasty shit. I was worried about diabetes, it runs in my family after all. Boy was I way off.
I go in. They bring me into a little cell. They call it a room. It is...
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Journal 23
Happy thoughts.
I bitch a lot. Ok, I bitch all the fucking time. It's part of my charm. No really, it is. Anyways, I thought I'd take this time and reflect on things that make me happy.
Sid. He is my bulldog. He has a wrinkly face and wattles around. He can go from sleeping to running through the house at a 100...
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Happy thoughts.
I bitch a lot. Ok, I bitch all the fucking time. It's part of my charm. No really, it is. Anyways, I thought I'd take this time and reflect on things that make me happy.
Sid. He is my bulldog. He has a wrinkly face and wattles around. He can go from sleeping to running through the house at a 100...
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hyenahell:
bulldogs rule. me, i have a chihuahua. he's a hell-raiser, punk-rock, fuck-shit-up dog. he comes to the bar with me and picks up more chicks than god. he eats cockroaches. the big, louisiana cockroaches. they seriously weigh more than he does. these are the cockroaches that, when i come home at night (or rather, very early morning) they're sitting at my kitchen table, drinking my beer, and playing dice. i've seen them mug my neighbors with broken-off whiskey bottles and bicycle chains. once i saw them steal a car and drive it into the mississippi. just for kicks. they laugh at my roach poison and huff roach spray to get fucked-up. but they ain't got nothin' on my dog. he fucks their world up.
ciao, bello.
ciao, bello.
Journal 22
Gypsy Rose Lee.
I am in what some would consider to be love. With a dead woman. A friend of mine told me that she was "not bad" looking, Saying she was "not bad" is like saying "the sun is a little warm."
And like all the great and beautiful women who inspire the way we see things today, she had a tragic...
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Gypsy Rose Lee.
I am in what some would consider to be love. With a dead woman. A friend of mine told me that she was "not bad" looking, Saying she was "not bad" is like saying "the sun is a little warm."
And like all the great and beautiful women who inspire the way we see things today, she had a tragic...
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hyenahell:
"...i remember a rolling stone
rolling on down through your bones
oh ya gotta save, you gotta save your soul well
she hates the whole world
when i love you baby
i mean it more than just the whole world
and when i saw gypsy rose,
gypsy rose, she rose to me..."
"...i remember a rolling stone
rolling on down through your bones
oh ya gotta save, you gotta save your soul well
she hates the whole world
when i love you baby
i mean it more than just the whole world
and when i saw gypsy rose,
gypsy rose, she rose to me..."
Journal 21
Love.
Fuck it. Right in its god damned eye. I don't believe in it. How many people say they are in love? a whole fucking lot. Well if it is the end all be all of emotion how can so many people be so fucking wrong?
The truth of it is, that people aren't in love. Attraction is real. Some attraction is more...
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Love.
Fuck it. Right in its god damned eye. I don't believe in it. How many people say they are in love? a whole fucking lot. Well if it is the end all be all of emotion how can so many people be so fucking wrong?
The truth of it is, that people aren't in love. Attraction is real. Some attraction is more...
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Journal 20
Fuck it.
I had a whole huge entry about the great points of a friend of mine then she just fuckin pissed me off in about 3 minutes, so I said fuck it and deleted the whole thing.
Fuck it.
I had a whole huge entry about the great points of a friend of mine then she just fuckin pissed me off in about 3 minutes, so I said fuck it and deleted the whole thing.
elisabeth:
From sugar to shit in 3 minutes. Yowwww 
hyenahell:
i am so glad you're finally back!
sugar to shit indeed, as is the way of all things.
how's life. otherwise, i mean?
i am so glad you're finally back!
sugar to shit indeed, as is the way of all things.
how's life. otherwise, i mean?
Journal 19
My toe hurts.
I was just walking across the room and i stubbed my fucking toe. Do you realize how much it hurts? Not only did I hit the tip, but i bent it sidewards. I'm in some serious wall punching pain.
Since I don't have much else to write about its confession time:
I am a geek. I play Everquest and DnD...
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My toe hurts.
I was just walking across the room and i stubbed my fucking toe. Do you realize how much it hurts? Not only did I hit the tip, but i bent it sidewards. I'm in some serious wall punching pain.
Since I don't have much else to write about its confession time:
I am a geek. I play Everquest and DnD...
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Journal 18
I'm Back
So my other computer broke. Motherboard fried. But now i got a cool one with a window and a flashing light that goes with the music. I'm gonna pick up a couple more because they are badass.
I got a job at McDonalds. It sucks. I'm getting a car and finding another job. in 5 days i've burned my arm 5...
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I'm Back
So my other computer broke. Motherboard fried. But now i got a cool one with a window and a flashing light that goes with the music. I'm gonna pick up a couple more because they are badass.
I got a job at McDonalds. It sucks. I'm getting a car and finding another job. in 5 days i've burned my arm 5...
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elisabeth:
It's good that you're back
Journal 18
I feel naked. Well even with clothes on I do. I cut my hair today. 15.5 inches of mohawk, 2 years growth, in the trash. why? because i need a job. i need one that badly. and honestly im tired of everyone bitching about how since its long im not gonna get one. well now they can suck my dick because its done....
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I feel naked. Well even with clothes on I do. I cut my hair today. 15.5 inches of mohawk, 2 years growth, in the trash. why? because i need a job. i need one that badly. and honestly im tired of everyone bitching about how since its long im not gonna get one. well now they can suck my dick because its done....
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elisabeth:
I'm sorry to hear this. However, that hair stuff. It grows again, and perhaps you will be in happier times when you can have it once more. Hope that you're doing well.
hyenahell:
a donde estas? te echo de menos...
Journal 17
I went to the doctors today to retest my blood pressure because it was really high. I am ok i guess but they wanna check me for diabetes =(. I have to have a wellness pannel done. Fuck my blood sugar damn it.
After that I came home and read. And read. And read some more. My dad always accuses me of fucking...
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I went to the doctors today to retest my blood pressure because it was really high. I am ok i guess but they wanna check me for diabetes =(. I have to have a wellness pannel done. Fuck my blood sugar damn it.
After that I came home and read. And read. And read some more. My dad always accuses me of fucking...
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Journal 16
So last night and today I was all excited. Stacie said she'd hang out with me tonight and go for coffee. I gave her directions to my house, and at 7pm she canceled. For me that means another night reading and possibly getting drunk on some Amber Bock.
I gotta go to a temp agency type thing this week for a job, i...
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So last night and today I was all excited. Stacie said she'd hang out with me tonight and go for coffee. I gave her directions to my house, and at 7pm she canceled. For me that means another night reading and possibly getting drunk on some Amber Bock.
I gotta go to a temp agency type thing this week for a job, i...
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hyenahell:
ah, the elusive stacie strikes again! but onward towards the heart of the matter... whiskey. i've never had Old Crow- how much is a 5th? i usually go for wild turkey as my poison of choice; but then again, i'm a bourbon-drinkin' kinda girl (born an' raised in the mountains of KY!) occationally i'll have a scotch or some jamison... any way you cut the cake, i'm primarily a whiskey-drinkin' woman. not really a big cocktail fan, either- i like to actually taste the alcohol, not some sugary pink shit. and i gotta have it either straight from the bottle (if i'm taking shots) or in a glass for sipping (neat or on rocks, depending on the mood) ... whiskey is not meant for shot glasses, i think. but that's just me. 
of course i am not at all opposed to some good ol' beer drinkin'. usually i go for schlitz or PBR, but abita purple haze if i'm feeling fancy.
of course i am not at all opposed to some good ol' beer drinkin'. usually i go for schlitz or PBR, but abita purple haze if i'm feeling fancy.Journal 15
I think. I'm pretty fucking drunk right now. So please exucse the lack of a real journal, or lack of any type of grammar. Hyna is my favorite person inthe world cuz she responds to my journal.
Sadie is amazng and i want to kiss her. She is more than just a woman, shes a goddess. *sigh*
the rooms starting to spin so...
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I think. I'm pretty fucking drunk right now. So please exucse the lack of a real journal, or lack of any type of grammar. Hyna is my favorite person inthe world cuz she responds to my journal.
Sadie is amazng and i want to kiss her. She is more than just a woman, shes a goddess. *sigh*
the rooms starting to spin so...
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hyenahell:
aw! 
edited to say: "where y'at, man?"
[Edited on May 29, 2003]
edited to say: "where y'at, man?"
[Edited on May 29, 2003]
noelani:
Sadie is amazing. She is the best ever.
Journal 14
Fate or destiny.
Close to the same thing, they are. I don't believe in either. I don't believ that things will always work out. I don't think everything happens for a reason. I am not blinded by false hope that maybe something great and special will come out of a shitty situation. Most times when things suck, its my fault, and they will...
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Fate or destiny.
Close to the same thing, they are. I don't believe in either. I don't believ that things will always work out. I don't think everything happens for a reason. I am not blinded by false hope that maybe something great and special will come out of a shitty situation. Most times when things suck, its my fault, and they will...
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hyenahell:
i agree. bullshit. wanna know the meaning of life? the universal enlightened truth? ha. just know that there is no meaning, i say. no truth. no reason. just a series of actions and reactions, stretching endlessly across history.
but i would really like to believe in tiny, sentient beings that are miniature, cartoon versions of myself and sit on my shoulder, whispering things like, "devour that small child" and "stab that kitten in the throat". i'd like to think they look like gorgons. or humanoid hyena creatures. or banana slugs. yeah, that would be cool.
xoxo, Hyena.
but i would really like to believe in tiny, sentient beings that are miniature, cartoon versions of myself and sit on my shoulder, whispering things like, "devour that small child" and "stab that kitten in the throat". i'd like to think they look like gorgons. or humanoid hyena creatures. or banana slugs. yeah, that would be cool.
xoxo, Hyena.
good luck with that, babe...
i'll have to send you an extra "get well soon" c.d.