daekrys

losing my truck, it's gonna happen, now i just gotta find the cheapest way to go into debt...does that make sense at all. i was $20 short of my last truck payment so i just went ahead and paid off my cell phone bill. i felt pretty naked without that, and i have a whopping........five friends. i need to go find some rich kids so i can mooch off of their rich parents.and then turn their children into chain smoking drug addicted alcoholic vandalists......ahhh dreams, hope used to be a good thing, now it's just depressing. it's ridiculous how much i miss heather. i should not have been all quiet and afraid to talk to her, because as soon as i finally built up the balls to do so, everything was better then it was in the first place...and then 3 days later she moves. swearing up and down she wished she hadn't promised her mom that she would come home for the winter.but now that she has gone back, that leaves me alone. but i can use this to my advantage. two days in a row i have turned down pot, because these coming months is my chance to turn shit around. work my ass off, get my own place so that i can get sue off my back, feels like living with my parents. and then heather can come back up and we can be together. and the next vehicle i buy will be bought outright, no financing. i now fully hate bankers and all that shit, fuck them and their greedy ways. all i've ever wanted financially was to be secure, i don't need pimped out cars or mansions. gimme something that runs from point a to point b, a toilet with running water, smokes, and beer money once in a while, i'm set. to sum it all up, i got a fucking long fucking hard road ahead of me. my next update will be positive, or i swear to god i'll jump off a bridge ( hence faking my own death and moving to europe, that'll stick it to them corporate fucks).