daddyk

you opened one nice can of worms, my friend. i personally don't care for 12 step programs and favor the health realization method of recovery. different discussion.

i believe that the 12 steps can be used in one of two basic ways. some addicts find a strength in the group that allows them to develop a positive sense of self that fosters spiritual growth and healing of the previously mentioned emotional hole. this is what i meant by the strengthening of ones character and will.

then there are those who buy into the powerless addict identity and become dependent on the group for their good feelings. they get the same high from positive feedback that they did from the chemicals. these are the people who never recover and end up filling the hole with the group. their self worth is predicated on the approval of others.

Depends on why your doing the drugs inthe first place I guess, through most of high school I did meth and acid on a daily basis. I came from an inter-city school to all most boon docks where people grew up toghter, and I was already and odball to begin with, so to disconect from where I didn't want to be I did alot of drugs. After this continued from quit some time and the friend I was hanging out with and useing with started ODing I realized I didn't want to be there either, in about a months time I disconnected from my friend, dropped every thing inculding smoking, and started to make friends with the wierdo in my school. I generaly think of it as a tool or aid to get through rough or confusing patches in life anyboby who keeps on using isn't trying very hard to find a salution to what ales them. wheater it be presciption or self medicated. When shit hit the fan and you know there is nothing you can do about it that day, get tanked and spark a fatty thats what I do.