Now I known I haven’t been posting a lot on here, and when I have posted it’s mostly been me complaining or feeling down about something. I apologize for that. It’s just I don’t really do anything in my everyday life except go to work and come home.
But the reason I’ve been feeling down since last night is because I started think again about the fact that to the people who claim me as their friend I’m nothing more than a background friend. They never get up with me to do anything unless everyone else is busy and I’m their last resort. What got me thinking about it again was my girlfriend asked me if I wanted to go do something with her and her friend that lives with us. I said yea because I was sick of just watching TV. Well after that her decided that she couldn’t go anywhere anymore because the guy she had been texting all day was annoying her so she had to go to bed and text him some more. So after that me and my girlfriend got a shower and as soon as she finished her shower, her friend had her go into her room to hangout with her all night.
That got me feeling down because it made me realize that, with the exception of my girlfriend, the people I live don’t even like associating with me.
Like I know I’m shit at meeting people, but dude we’ve know each other for 4 fucking years and you still have to make up excuses to keep me from hanging out with you and my girlfriend at the same time.
And I tried talking to a friend on Snapchat from Kentucky, or we’ll I thought they were a friend, and we’ll they just ignored my message.
So they was a great boost for my self-esteem/confidence. Not like I had much to begin with. It seems to be a reoccurring theme that everyone I meet is in on.
Anyways, imma try and start posting more and complaining less on here.
HOPE EVERYONE HAS A GOOD DAY!
