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i woke up early on monday (in a happy place) but that just made it sneaky... it bode its time and struck today, leaving me with a bad luck tuesday. two projects launching this week and another that i was put on friday afternoon, all now now now. my response: fuck one up with an obscure bug that took two senior devs and the lead architect to fix, introduce into the second one a stylesheet error that made stripes where once there were no stripes, and the third? well, i'll deal with that tomorrow... nevermind that it's an outside contract that one of our distributors fucked up that was due a month and a half ago (and yes, if you were paying attention that's the one that got to my desk at noon friday). did i mention that i worked on saturday?

fucksakes. i don't want to deal with any of this. not work, not my empty bank account, not telus and their amazing ability to fuck up bills, not washing the goddamn floors, not dealing with the cats, not grocery shopping, none of it. rolling up my sleeves and pressure washing my life was a great idea on paper, but now that i'm knee deep in shit it's lost a bit of its appeal.

but hey, i'm no Gonzalo (see right arm). at least the version of me that i'd like to become isn't, so fuck it. i'm going to go buy some food and go to the gym and the rest can wait until i'm less pissed off at everything.