I mean actually she is still alive.
So, last month I told my wife I wanted a divorce. I ended up going back home and trying to make it work. It was out of guilt not love. I honestly don't know what to do. We have been married for 9 years and together for 12. I don't love her. She's a nice person but her and I have nothing in common and I'm just so unhappy in the relationship. We don't fight and neither of us are abusive. We just co-exist like roommates. I want to be loved, have sex (I didn't mention we haven't had sex in years), and have a real relationship. I can't have that with her but at the same time I can't leave without feeling guilty and like I have abandoned her. I don't know what to do man.