d0tizzl3

I consider myself a funny guy. Happy almost all of the time. I have so much in life to be thankful for that it outweighs the bad...but i can't help but be compelled to want more out of life. I love my wife i think, its just she has no aspirations. I can't be around that anymore.....Im moving to Afghanistan thanks to the NAVY voluntelling me to go in April and i get to leave my life behind for a year. Most people may think thats a bad thing but i believe it could be a huge blessing in disguise. Even if it turns out that i hate it there, i will have so much MORE to be thankful for when i come back. This blog probably sounds like a bunch of bitching and to be honest it really is. I'm a realist. I take things how i see them and for what they really are. I don't add extra bits and pieces to life in order to conjure up some dramatic effect....HOWEVER (you knew the big BUUUT was comming eh?) I think i'm being drawn to another path in life. I was going to stay in the navy for 8 years but certain opposing views have recently shown me otherwise. This last year is going to be the longest stretch in my life so far. I am basically here, asking for your support, and not to forget me while i'm there. Im telling you it makes me sick to think about not talking with you at least once a day. I will write whenever i can and make it my up most priority to communicate with you whenever possible. I can't ask you to wait for me, i won't, thats unfair. Like i said, im a realist. But if for some reason, when im back, and all is said and done you're still here for me, i promise to always be there for you. I hope you read this and understand what i am trying to say to you. I <3 you...