cypris

happy valentines day to me

so if what i'm feeling right now is heartbreak
from when you love someone and they rip out your heart?
i've come to the realization that i've never loved.
till now
and if i ever feel like this again, i dunno what i'll do.
i never cry. i cried myself to sleep. i was so upset i 'd. that was a first.
dont tell me you love me and then say 'i'm comfused'
dont tell me you love me then fuck another girl when you move.
dont tell me you love me then want to keep it on the low down
dont tell me you love me i hope you dont come back to this fucking town.
not that it'll really matter cuz i want to move far away
where? who knows.
i cant afford anything right now.
i hate everyone in this god forsaken town. they can all suck my big left nut
if this was love, i dont ever want to love again.
i dont think i could handle the pain twice.
someone just needs to put me outta my misery.
it's been one week ciggy free. drug free. alcolohol free. junk food free.
yet right now i'd love to have a budlight smoke a doob then finish off with a brownie and a marlboro red.