I am floating. Waiting. Pacing. Sweating.
It's much too obvious that I am one of the many who has no fucking clue as to what they are doing. I am building a shrine! You cannot give up when the promise of reward is so great.
I have to pee...
Have I become invisible again?
"once I thought that I was in control
but that was...
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It's much too obvious that I am one of the many who has no fucking clue as to what they are doing. I am building a shrine! You cannot give up when the promise of reward is so great.
I have to pee...
Have I become invisible again?
"once I thought that I was in control
but that was...
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Cripes.
I'm sort of blowing it now, aren't I?
Sort of easier to do that than to later be rejected, I guess.
Nice to fall into that line of thinking. Pathetic ass I've become.
Some things have to be handled delicately. Maturely.
Lovingly? Patiently. Slowly.
I undersatand wanting to be cautious. I understand that all too well.
You are worth my time and my patience....
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I'm sort of blowing it now, aren't I?
Sort of easier to do that than to later be rejected, I guess.
Nice to fall into that line of thinking. Pathetic ass I've become.
Some things have to be handled delicately. Maturely.
Lovingly? Patiently. Slowly.
I undersatand wanting to be cautious. I understand that all too well.
You are worth my time and my patience....
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cypher:
that last comment should have been on your journal page.
I screw up everything!
argh
I screw up everything!
argh
demolitionkitten:
then send me something else!
you are my bestest friend, right?
you are my bestest friend, right?
"bugger off"
or
"i bring you love. i bring you peace"
i've not decided as of yet.
"Hold up hold on don't be scared
You'll never change what's been and gone
May your smile shine on. Don't be scared
Your destiny may keep you warm.
Cuz all of the stars are fading away
Just try not to worry you'll see them some day
Take what...
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or
"i bring you love. i bring you peace"
i've not decided as of yet.
"Hold up hold on don't be scared
You'll never change what's been and gone
May your smile shine on. Don't be scared
Your destiny may keep you warm.
Cuz all of the stars are fading away
Just try not to worry you'll see them some day
Take what...
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dia:
Who plays games?
suiciety:
understatement of the year... its hard to care... when your busy being careful...
There are times when my life seems oh hell I don't know...grainy. Almost nauseous.
I come to SG to see the pretty girls and maybe one in particular, so as to take away the buzzing in my noodle. Make me focus on something else and all that sort of thing.
Then I start reading... truly and comfortingly, I find that if I am in fact...
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I come to SG to see the pretty girls and maybe one in particular, so as to take away the buzzing in my noodle. Make me focus on something else and all that sort of thing.
Then I start reading... truly and comfortingly, I find that if I am in fact...
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cypher:
I am starting to understand suiciety's desire for murder.
I'm gonna go eat something and maybe go to a movie. That seems healthy.
I'm gonna go eat something and maybe go to a movie. That seems healthy.
suiciety:
now make a fuck and cut cut cut
Had one of those nights wherein decent slumber is interrupted by 3 hours of unexplainable inability to fall asleep once again.
I was stressed about a girl. A girl! Pathetic...
I am
Tired.
Irritable.
Now I have to go run, I have to. It's on my schedule.
Tuesday, Thursday, Sunday. Every week. I am going to die.
Why have I become addicted to this perverse...
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I was stressed about a girl. A girl! Pathetic...
I am
Tired.
Irritable.
Now I have to go run, I have to. It's on my schedule.
Tuesday, Thursday, Sunday. Every week. I am going to die.
Why have I become addicted to this perverse...
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demolitionkitten:
and I could lace your shoes for you when your hip gives out. which will probably be sooner than we think, huh? 
demolitionkitten:
ah, I believe you started with the age thing.
I think that you are right.... I haven't had a touchy feely sort of roommate in quite some time. Sounds nice.
when shall I expect you?
I think that you are right.... I haven't had a touchy feely sort of roommate in quite some time. Sounds nice.
when shall I expect you?
I just went shopping. Picked up some premade deviled eggs. Tasty!
My two lonely little guitars are looking at me funny, as though they feel neglected. I feel ashamed. I have been a bad cypher. I've been spending way too much time on this site recently. All for love. Pathetic.
My being aches for Dia.
It's ridiculous. I know.
Why is it that I always...
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My two lonely little guitars are looking at me funny, as though they feel neglected. I feel ashamed. I have been a bad cypher. I've been spending way too much time on this site recently. All for love. Pathetic.
My being aches for Dia.
It's ridiculous. I know.
Why is it that I always...
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suiciety:
i like to see what people get from my words as well... if mildy amusing.. and scray sometimes...the distance one would have to drift to see into my mirror...
err and i apologize for intruding on yoru journal cypher... just merely stalking firends out of boredom...
err and i apologize for intruding on yoru journal cypher... just merely stalking firends out of boredom...
demolitionkitten:
sorry, shweets.
I was busy being miserably uncomfortable and giddy like a little schoolgirl at the same time.
Please kill me.
I was busy being miserably uncomfortable and giddy like a little schoolgirl at the same time.
Please kill me.
I just got back from the Y. I run 3 times a week. It helps not only to stay in shape in my old age, but also helps to ward off depression, a lovely family trait. Good for laughs.
I seriously need a girlfriend.
I'm obviously not goth nor am I "alternative" (what is alternative anymore?). I just attempt to stay true to myself. I...
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I seriously need a girlfriend.
I'm obviously not goth nor am I "alternative" (what is alternative anymore?). I just attempt to stay true to myself. I...
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jamy:
you're welcome.... the image in my profile, I just throw together in flash.... if you look closely, you'll see some interesting details ;-)
solisis:
I suggest a career as secret agent. That look you hold well and likely would get you hired on the spot
I want Dia to have my babies.
Is that wrong?
I'm starting to get scared that it might not happen.
Off to work I go.
My mouth has that "I ate nachos last night" feeling to it.
I might put up a different photo.
I am tired.
I hate those Batman movies.
Where are my keys?
cypher
part two:
Why am I always looking for...
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Is that wrong?
I'm starting to get scared that it might not happen.
Off to work I go.
My mouth has that "I ate nachos last night" feeling to it.
I might put up a different photo.
I am tired.
I hate those Batman movies.
Where are my keys?
cypher
part two:
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demolitionkitten:
I don't have a pool.
I want one though.
Maybe you can be my pool.
mmmm? dirty.
Nah, new crush then.
love. love.
swiss. gouda.
blah.
I want one though.
Maybe you can be my pool.
mmmm? dirty.
Nah, new crush then.
love. love.
swiss. gouda.
blah.
demolitionkitten:
you are not running.
you are crazy.
you are crazy.
The problem is in thinking that you are unique, that no one else has felt the way you do, gets your humor, understands your pain, etc, etc, blah blah blah. "Ooh, I feel so alone and isolated! I feel like I'm just floating around in some cosmic pool wherein nothing is real and I can't feel anything anymore!" Well, boo-hoo. Damned cry baby.
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vervain______:
cypher, i know quarm, he isn't unfriendly, he's just wierd.
jumping_spider:
don't bring your angst down on me, I just found your picture very surreal in a add type kind of way. Do you really believe that you are not unique? If so I feel bad for you. We are all unique for better or for worse. And the finger does look very much like it could be snapped clean off. And no a kung fu yoga master is not boring.
Why aren't there more sets of Faith?
I need more, demmitall.
I have become woozy with love/lust.
This is an odd way to spend my time.
I need more, demmitall.
I have become woozy with love/lust.
This is an odd way to spend my time.
solisis:
Yet ever so fulfilling!
demolitionkitten:
Yeah, the funny thing is now I am freezing my arse off and had to go and put more clothes on... (not because of faith but because of the ac...faith makes me hot)
How many nachos can one man eat?
I am so tired this morning/afternoon. Coffee will bring me back to life. Then I'll read for awhile. Oh yes I will.
I haven't talked to my ex (Jaime) since Thursday. I feel like an idiot. I was so very swoony. I hate that.
I guess I'll have to email her soon, so that she doesn't think I'm...
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I am so tired this morning/afternoon. Coffee will bring me back to life. Then I'll read for awhile. Oh yes I will.
I haven't talked to my ex (Jaime) since Thursday. I feel like an idiot. I was so very swoony. I hate that.
I guess I'll have to email her soon, so that she doesn't think I'm...
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demolitionkitten:
Yes, I certainly miss the landscapers and the maintenance man as well. I do NOT, however, miss all the asshole neighbors I have had over the years.
I actually like doing everything myself...just not when it is hot out.
I have no idea how many nachos one man can eat...but I once was going to eat 96 cucumbers (the big ones) in 16 hours (1 every ten minutes) for 100$ because I told someone I could eat them all day long and they didn't believe me...but then I was afraid It would make me sick and I wouldn't like them anymore, and that would have made me sad.
I actually like doing everything myself...just not when it is hot out.
I have no idea how many nachos one man can eat...but I once was going to eat 96 cucumbers (the big ones) in 16 hours (1 every ten minutes) for 100$ because I told someone I could eat them all day long and they didn't believe me...but then I was afraid It would make me sick and I wouldn't like them anymore, and that would have made me sad.
devi1gir1666:
I love JTHM. Squee is so damn cute! I bought the collection last year. It's the best bathroom book ever. : )
xxx Crystal
xxx Crystal
The evening did not go well.
I swoon.
She leaves early.
Crud.
Today is Friday, though, and that means one thing.
Nachos.
A pleasant end to a crap week.
Have a great weekend whomever reads this.
I swoon.
She leaves early.
Crud.
Today is Friday, though, and that means one thing.
Nachos.
A pleasant end to a crap week.
Have a great weekend whomever reads this.
demolitionkitten:
That IS what I did and that sucks as well.
My week was more like crap end to a pleasant week.
I hate that!
My week was more like crap end to a pleasant week.
I hate that!
I believe in what i can see. not with vision alone but with whatever speaks. love...a misused and often misinterpreted word exists after a fashion...before it was ready and never when you suspect it. until it becomes clear...it could be defined as an infatuation.
I'm pretty sure you're aware of this. remember, mr cypher, to not let the course of your mind cloud the overall image. it is reality if you play the game with tactics and attentive notice...... the puzzle i speak. the answers just too far to reach...it all becomes clear in less time than you would believe.
what is love? i wouldn't know
if not, hook one up. it's free. download trillian, free also. cleaner interface. its worth the time