So today started out like any other regular Monday. I get up, go to work and do all the usual stuff. Then lunch time comes around, and I decided to go to the house for my break as opposed to going to get some fast food.
As my time on lunch is almost over I get on FB real quick to see what all is up. That’s when I see a post from one of my good friends back at Fort Bragg that got me a little confused and concerned. So I jumped on messenger and asked what is going on with our mutual friend, Lowe. He messaged me back saying that Lowe had taken his own life over the weekend, and that it was one of our other friends who had found him this morning when he went to see why Lowe hadn’t shown up for work this morning.
My friend (who’s name I won’t mention) had to break into his house through the back door once he discovered that Lowe’s car was in the driveway and wasn’t answering his phone...
I felt so terrible for him, having to find him like that. I won’t go into the details, suffice it to say that it was a really bad scene.
I don’t know why Lowe took his life, nobody does at this point. There was no note, no Facebook message, posts.... nothing. The police have his phone and are going to go through it to see if there are any calls/texts that can explain why he did what he did.
This news had me reeling, I broke down crying, and as I’m typing this out the tears are coming back. I wish I knew what demons he was fighting. I wish he would have called me or literally anyone...
I wish this incredibly smart, funny, hardworking, dedicated young man, Soldier, and most importantly friend was still with us.
I post things on FB, insta, Twitter and so on all the time about the need to call if you’re thinking of hurting yourself. I tell people that they can call me anytime day or night and that I will answer. I randomly call my brothers to check in on them, catch up, see how they’re doing and shoot the shit.
I’m sad, I’m angry, I feel like I there’s more I should have done even though I know there was nothing I could have done...
SGT Jason Lowe, you were a great Soldier and friend. I am proud to have known you; and to be able to teach, lead, and train you. I hope you found the peace in death that you could not get in life. I will miss you, but I know we’ll meet again.
UNTIL VALHALLA BROTHER!!!!
