so..... Nothing really new. Me and Blaire are talking which is nice. Life is boring. Money is tight. Nothing new.
I did get a ringtone maker on my laptop so i can make ringtones for my phone now
So if you have any suggestions for songs to make tones out of feel free to mention them.
I have also decided in my life that.... After...
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I did get a ringtone maker on my laptop so i can make ringtones for my phone now
So if you have any suggestions for songs to make tones out of feel free to mention them.
I have also decided in my life that.... After...
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nexus:
Why thankee!
_crystal_:
I know I was really looking forward to it they were fucking awsome last time I saw them... Oh well.
So things are still hard for me with everything. After we talked on tuesday its a little easier. But still not easy. It just doesn't hurt as much. I think one of the big things i am having to do that is making it so hard (besides of course the feelings i still have for her) is having to go back to my old life...
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nikonphoto80:
I'm so very sorry, I know what some of that is like, your old life sounds like my life, I only have a couple of friends and they have there own life and some how it seems like I fuck things up and make going out not so much fun with them unless we go out of town, I do go out alone in hopes of having a good time but 9 times out of 10 I come home feeling worse then I did before I went, I hope things look up for you.
missmir:
Oh dear, that's always the hardest part of a relationship, especially a long one. Relationships become a habit and our brains are actually hard wired to treat everything we do like it will eventually become habit (i'm learning this in my quantum physics book lol) I wish you well and don't worry, it will get easier. Some times it takes a while but it always does.
Funny story that might cheer you up....
I was walking around the neighborhood with my son yesterday and we passed by my racist hardcore redneck republican neighbor that beats his wife's house, and on the back of his van next to his "W 04" and "McCain/Palin" bumper stickers, there was a new one that said, "In case of RAPTURE, Car is yours!" LOL!! I laughed for a good 5 minutes. This motherfucker is scared to death of a black man as president. ooohhh *sigh* conservatives....
Funny story that might cheer you up....
I was walking around the neighborhood with my son yesterday and we passed by my racist hardcore redneck republican neighbor that beats his wife's house, and on the back of his van next to his "W 04" and "McCain/Palin" bumper stickers, there was a new one that said, "In case of RAPTURE, Car is yours!" LOL!! I laughed for a good 5 minutes. This motherfucker is scared to death of a black man as president. ooohhh *sigh* conservatives....
OK OK OK TODAY IS HONESTLY ONE OF THE BEST DAYS OF MY LIFE
FIRST I finally went to the doctor to start getting stuff done for my health and heart
SECOND Blaire came with me which meant ALOT and she was so caring and held my hand and told me it would be ok and made me feel calmer
THIRD i got to talk...
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FIRST I finally went to the doctor to start getting stuff done for my health and heart
SECOND Blaire came with me which meant ALOT and she was so caring and held my hand and told me it would be ok and made me feel calmer
THIRD i got to talk...
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zaftigg:
I second that emotion.
An artist works their whole life. They work every day trying to make that perfect piece that expresses them and how they feel. It may take a hundred or a million attempts but they keep working, keep trying.
An artist who works with crystal forms and molds the delicate crystal. Has a vision of what they want to create. They form many shapes and many...
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An artist who works with crystal forms and molds the delicate crystal. Has a vision of what they want to create. They form many shapes and many...
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accuser:
Man.
Alright, look, I want to help you here. But you gotta come down from the drama for a bit. How long were you with this girl? Cause I gotta say, I was in a five and a half year relationship, out of the blue got dumped and shortly after figured out that there was another guy. I didn't make this big of a deal out of it.
You need to get a grip. Is this really the end of the world? Do you honestly believe there is no possibility that you'll ever meet anyone else? Even if that unlikely scenario unfolded, is that really that bad? Because if you can't be happy alone, you're not ready for serious relationships.
Look, go to this post, read it, and decide if you want to start healing or just keep tearing yourself apart. Shed your tears, do your thing, do what you need to do to get over it, but at this point you're making it harder on yourself than it needs to be.
From all I've seen, you're acting like a teenager over this. According to your profile, you ought to know better by now. You can be fucked up for a while, but it gets to a certain point where you're no longer legitimately fucked up - you're just basking in misery. It's destructive in every way. You're not getting over it, you're repelling anyone who might be interested, and you're still miserable.
Pull yourself together, move past it, figure out what you like about yourself, figure out what you don't like and change it, figure out what you want, and go after it. Right now you're portraying yourself as an emotional burden, looking for charity. No one wants to deal with that. Do better for yourself. There's no reason you can't.
Alright, look, I want to help you here. But you gotta come down from the drama for a bit. How long were you with this girl? Cause I gotta say, I was in a five and a half year relationship, out of the blue got dumped and shortly after figured out that there was another guy. I didn't make this big of a deal out of it.
You need to get a grip. Is this really the end of the world? Do you honestly believe there is no possibility that you'll ever meet anyone else? Even if that unlikely scenario unfolded, is that really that bad? Because if you can't be happy alone, you're not ready for serious relationships.
Look, go to this post, read it, and decide if you want to start healing or just keep tearing yourself apart. Shed your tears, do your thing, do what you need to do to get over it, but at this point you're making it harder on yourself than it needs to be.
From all I've seen, you're acting like a teenager over this. According to your profile, you ought to know better by now. You can be fucked up for a while, but it gets to a certain point where you're no longer legitimately fucked up - you're just basking in misery. It's destructive in every way. You're not getting over it, you're repelling anyone who might be interested, and you're still miserable.
Pull yourself together, move past it, figure out what you like about yourself, figure out what you don't like and change it, figure out what you want, and go after it. Right now you're portraying yourself as an emotional burden, looking for charity. No one wants to deal with that. Do better for yourself. There's no reason you can't.
calixtenemare:
I'm sorry to say this, but I agree with that comment up there. :/
I'm trying to deal with this all but... its still really hard...
Why do i keep listening to songs that just makes me think of blaire and how much i love her and just make me sad?
Why do i keep listening to songs that just makes me think of blaire and how much i love her and just make me sad?
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mrsfulks:
I understand that ur hurting things will get better *hugs*
decembermarie:
I understand fully hun. I did it too....I actually out em on repate and listened to them so many times they werent so sad anymore
OK so as per usual I have no plans tonight for halloween. I did somethin glast year but it was honestly the first time i had done something on halloween since..... I was a kid. I never have any parties to go to. i don't enjoy going out to bars or clubs ESPECIALLY by myself. So i haven't had a reason to celebrate it.
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deceptiviewfilm:
NO. I only fond the transformer sketchings a week ago. I dont know if you could see it but there's an decepticon there as well. I carved the Headless Horseman but it finally collapsed.
So..... Blaire came over Tuesday night to help me Dye my hair (pictures to come eventually) and when she picked me up from work she mentioned that we needed to talk later. So we purchased stuff to dye my hair and went home and dyed my hair and while it was all soaking in .... we talked..... she.... she...god this is so hard to say....
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mrsted_stryker:
So I dont need to tell you you did nothing wrong.
I DO feel like I should tell HER she isnt a horrible person either.
I DO feel like I should tell HER she isnt a horrible person either.
_crystal_:
Yeah in this past year I've become distant from all my friends... we hang out occasionally, but it's not like it used to be... I never thought I would say this, but I kinda miss high school 
A weekend that started out great has turned horrible.
Yesterday Blaire finally got to meet my best friend Manni. We went to the movies to see SAW V and they got along great. Well later me and Blaire went to Target i got some socks and walking out we started talking.... i decided to tell her fully about my heart condition and the fact that...
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Yesterday Blaire finally got to meet my best friend Manni. We went to the movies to see SAW V and they got along great. Well later me and Blaire went to Target i got some socks and walking out we started talking.... i decided to tell her fully about my heart condition and the fact that...
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semiretiredpunk:
My heart's fucked up too. But not much. Sorry to hear it. I just wouldn't worry about it. If you were/are serious about being with her, that would be a pretty big thing to be hiding. You did the right thing.
lighthammer1979:
How bad was her reaction? It is a bit of a bomb to drop on someone though. If she is as caring as you say she is it may just take her a little time to process it all and put it in perspective. I have a bad heart as well. Nothing as serious as you, but I feel you.
So i was awesome and i voted early yesterday (as we say in chicago VOTE EARLY AND VOTE OFTEN!!!!!!!!!!)
I love that we can vote early here
The one bad thing is because of the economy being shit sales in the company are way down so they are starting to cut hours I am down from having as much as 6 days a week to...
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(as we say in chicago VOTE EARLY AND VOTE OFTEN!!!!!!!!!!)
I love that we can vote early here
The one bad thing is because of the economy being shit sales in the company are way down so they are starting to cut hours
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fragilesong_:
nice
and I'm sorry about your hours.
and I'm sorry about your hours.
_crystal_:
Like about two hours haha God I'm so tired... and I have to be up at 5 tomorrow morning... I think I'm gonna die 
WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So Saturday went AMAZING.
I busted my ass from getting off work at 6:30 ran by my friends Flower shop to pick up flowers for the night. Ran home to change for the night. The only sucky thing is that Traffic was HORRIBLE getting home. I should have just been able to take the bus there BUT i ended up having to take a...
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I busted my ass from getting off work at 6:30 ran by my friends Flower shop to pick up flowers for the night. Ran home to change for the night. The only sucky thing is that Traffic was HORRIBLE getting home. I should have just been able to take the bus there BUT i ended up having to take a...
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fabrizia:
You sound like a real sweetie. I bet your lady had an awesome night! 
pomfelo:
Excellent!