OK so i am writing this really quickly at work before i close up and head out to the Blackhawks game tonight.
Things are still hurting inside. I know some of the major reasons its hurting.
1. i had never EVER had a girl that treated me as great as Blaire had. I did everything i could to make sure she was happy in every way possible and she always said she was and that i was great and now this situation makes me feel like shit about it all and i had thought that this was THE ONE ... and now it just seems like its just gonna be just another one
2. while i am sure it still hurts her i know its not effecting her and doesn't hurt inside for her anywhere near as much as it does for me and that makes it hurt so much more
3. one thing i didn't mention to anyone..... the sunday i told blaire about my heart... she went had cheated on me and slept with her friend Chris and its crushing me especially since....
4. She started dating chris recently (I'm not stalking her it showed it on facebook) and not only does it crush me because of who it is but because she had told me she loved me so much and that our relationship was so great and i know i am NO where near ready to start even THINKING about any sort of relationship... and she is seeing someone already.
There are a few other things but i think those are the major ones.
The one good thing is i recently made a new friend and we have been chatting and texting alot so its keeping my mind of it most of the time. I am doing my best to not put all of this on her though. She knows about most of it. But i don't really talk about it. I try to talk about EVERYTHING but it.... which actually is hard. But i knwo it will help. Also been trying to hang out with manni and a few other friends more often but its hard cause most of my friends are either to busy live to far away or are just not interested in hanging out OR want to go out drinking which i have NO interest in doing....
ok long but it took me less than like 5 minutes to type up... thats it for now. Later everyone... thanks for all the support with everything going on.
Things are still hurting inside. I know some of the major reasons its hurting.
1. i had never EVER had a girl that treated me as great as Blaire had. I did everything i could to make sure she was happy in every way possible and she always said she was and that i was great and now this situation makes me feel like shit about it all and i had thought that this was THE ONE ... and now it just seems like its just gonna be just another one
2. while i am sure it still hurts her i know its not effecting her and doesn't hurt inside for her anywhere near as much as it does for me and that makes it hurt so much more
3. one thing i didn't mention to anyone..... the sunday i told blaire about my heart... she went had cheated on me and slept with her friend Chris and its crushing me especially since....
4. She started dating chris recently (I'm not stalking her it showed it on facebook) and not only does it crush me because of who it is but because she had told me she loved me so much and that our relationship was so great and i know i am NO where near ready to start even THINKING about any sort of relationship... and she is seeing someone already.
There are a few other things but i think those are the major ones.
The one good thing is i recently made a new friend and we have been chatting and texting alot so its keeping my mind of it most of the time. I am doing my best to not put all of this on her though. She knows about most of it. But i don't really talk about it. I try to talk about EVERYTHING but it.... which actually is hard. But i knwo it will help. Also been trying to hang out with manni and a few other friends more often but its hard cause most of my friends are either to busy live to far away or are just not interested in hanging out OR want to go out drinking which i have NO interest in doing....
ok long but it took me less than like 5 minutes to type up... thats it for now. Later everyone... thanks for all the support with everything going on.
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You will get to know a lovely lady soon, at least try to feel better! i know is hard...
but you rule do much!!
And I totally know how you feel. I'm in like a weird limbo of nonsense myself.