ok few things to post about. One i have been putting off a little.
1 My grandma's surgery went great. She is all hopped up on pain meds right now. So when i talked to her she was all weird lol. She is still in the hospital recovering till thursday/friday.
my week has been pretty shitty this week and I was getting kinda depressed earlier this week because--->>
2. I have been working ALOT and calixtenemare has been really busy with not only school and work but with the gamers/geeks club she is in at school and just with hanging out with friends in general. So i haven't been able to spend any real time with her
She came over most nights to spend the night. But it was litterally her coming over us going to bed and then her dropping me off at work. We didn't even have sex at all. Largely because->
3 My sex drive goes to fucking hell when i get depressed. Especially when i am depressed AND pissed. Which i was earlier this week because-->>
4. My fucking ZUNE MP3 player fucking died on me They sent out an update for the software for it. The software for my computer went fine and is actually quite awesome. But when it updated my player. It wouldn't work after that. I went to go play it later and i couldn't access any of my songs. I talked to someone and we tried to fix it but it looks like the programing is corrupted or something. Luckily its still under warranty. But i am still with out my player for at LEAST a week. Probably two weeks.
5. The big thing that started bringing me down is..... this tuesday I go to get the blood taken for the Paternity test to see if Bella is actually mine or not. This is really stressing me out and therefor depressing me and just making my week go to hell. I am nervous cause its such a big thing. Is she mine? is she Lee's? Do i want her to be my daughter? and it also doesn't help that i have a HUGE HUGE HUGE HUGE fear of needles. I hate them. I can't even watch someone get a shot in a movie
1 My grandma's surgery went great. She is all hopped up on pain meds right now. So when i talked to her she was all weird lol. She is still in the hospital recovering till thursday/friday.
my week has been pretty shitty this week and I was getting kinda depressed earlier this week because--->>
2. I have been working ALOT and calixtenemare has been really busy with not only school and work but with the gamers/geeks club she is in at school and just with hanging out with friends in general. So i haven't been able to spend any real time with her
She came over most nights to spend the night. But it was litterally her coming over us going to bed and then her dropping me off at work. We didn't even have sex at all. Largely because->
3 My sex drive goes to fucking hell when i get depressed. Especially when i am depressed AND pissed. Which i was earlier this week because-->>
4. My fucking ZUNE MP3 player fucking died on me
They sent out an update for the software for it. The software for my computer went fine and is actually quite awesome. But when it updated my player. It wouldn't work after that. I went to go play it later and i couldn't access any of my songs. I talked to someone and we tried to fix it but it looks like the programing is corrupted or something. Luckily its still under warranty. But i am still with out my player for at LEAST a week. Probably two weeks.
5. The big thing that started bringing me down is..... this tuesday I go to get the blood taken for the Paternity test to see if Bella is actually mine or not. This is really stressing me out and therefor depressing me and just making my week go to hell. I am nervous cause its such a big thing. Is she mine? is she Lee's? Do i want her to be my daughter? and it also doesn't help that i have a HUGE HUGE HUGE HUGE fear of needles. I hate them. I can't even watch someone get a shot in a movie
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Glad your nan is doing ok and good luck for tuesday. I hope things work out the way you want them to.
I hope you get to see your girl more soon.
Well a week or even 2 weeks is not that long, you went this long with out it you can go a couple more weeks can't you.
Well I hope what ever happens is best for you and the kid.