cyberiouse

I have long known that i have Anxiety problems and have been trying to work on getting through or around them. But recently i realised what fuels not only my anxiety but most all of my choices and non choices in my life...... FEAR.
I seem to be afraid of doing so many things. I am afraid of going out to bars i am afraid to try to do better at work cause i am scared all i am going to do is fail and i will have waisted all that time and then my managers will see that and fire me. I was so scared to have ONE drink of alcohol my whole life cause i was scared i was going to become an alcoholic. Most of my friends at one time or another have tried a few drugs. Some they liked some they hated and none of my friends ever got addicted or anything..... but i am just so scared and always have been that the worst will happen with me that i never had my "experimental" phase in life. Not with drugs or alcohol. hell i am so scared of taking drugs when i have gone to see a therapist or psychologist about my problems i refuse to take meds cause i am so scared i will get addicted or something bad will happen.
My friends i have or have had will go out to clubs or parties or bars but i rarely go cause i am honestly scared. Scared whats going to happen. I am scared to talk to people in public. i have never really picked up on a girl in public cause i am just so scared of being rejected........ Outside of like a fear of needles and dentist i really don't have any "phobias' in general to speak of.... but i am just scared of doing so many things
I want to work past this but every time i try to work past it........ it seems to get worse. I can't sleep tonight cause i am scared to go to work tomorrow...... I like my job and i know i can do good at it but.,... i am just so scared i am going to screw up... i don't know what to do..........