Friday Mar 28, 2008

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So i went today to get Illinois Medicaid so that i can go to the doctor and get everything done that needs to be done to get checked on.... Turns out I am not elligible for it.
Its very much bullshit. There are two reasons i am not eligible
1. I'm a white male. Not joking in the least bit. If i was a woman i would have a chance to be eligible or if i was a minority i would have a chance to be eligible. But since i am both white and male unless i can prove i am fully dissabled in someway i am not eligible.
2. I would have to have to go se a few doctors and bring proof that i am in need or dissabled. Doctors i can not afford to go see cause i don't have insurance or medicaid....

Its bullshit. I cant get medicaid without seeing a doctor but i cant afford to see a doctor with out medicaid....

I am gonna try to go to a free state run medical clinic. But from what i understand they are about as difficult as medicaid... so i honestly don't know what to do if that doesn't work

I'm really starting to get scared now.... I'm actually doing something about it and i still get nothing. I don't want to die because of this.... at least not now. I can't die alone. My biggest dream and hope was to be a good husband and father one day. Honestly nothing else has really mattered to me. If i can't get SOME sort of coverage and it means i can't get this taken care of .... i just don't want to die alone frown

Does anyone live in canada who would be willing to marry me? If i can't get coverage that is my next step probably.

For those of you who read this and are wondering what is going on read my last blog
here>>>

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so.... I wanted to come on here and talk about something serious about me.
Its something i have told very few people but is something that effects me on an almost daily basis and scares me alot.
As a small hand full of you know i suffer from a genetic disorder called Marfan Syndrome. The basics of it is that it is the deterioration of muscles and joints in the body. (its more complicated but I'm not going into it) This causes by joints to ache and hurt and i have had this problem my whole life. I have hard times holding pens or even typing for a long period of time.
But this is the least of my problems. Unfortunately it also effects some of my organs. The one in particular that is of most worry and fear is that it effects my heart. Since your heart is basically made up of muscles and connective tissues, I will more than likelly have to have heart surgery by the time I am 35.
I have been having chest pains for the past month and i know i really need to go to the doctor..... but I'm honestly scared to go. Its one thing to think that something could be wrong with me. But going to see a doctor and having the chance that he could tell me my heart is bad and that i NEED the surgery or even worse that i could die.... i just can't handle it.... I don't know what to do. I also don't have insurance so would have to go through state run stuff. I'm so scared. I've had trouble sleeping and even focusing most of the time since i have started having chest pains.


I'm scared and don't know what i should do.....

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jenya:
okay i know this isn't so glamorous but......

awhile back i had heard that if you work at Jewel even as a bagger and only part time you get some decent insurance

sorry about the medicaid.........that is soooo shitty
i only got it cuz i am certifiable
yup, what fun
nikonphoto80:
That is complete bullshit, that is why America is falling apart, medical stuff should be free, how can we have a great country when our people can't afford to take care of themselves.

If I had the money I would help you out, there has got to be something you can do, there has got to be people out there who will see you when it is a matter of life and death.

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