Thanks for all the support from everone on my last entry. I'm glad to see that with everything that went down i made and kept some friends. Especially ones in chicago 
But I'm not gonna dwell on the past and bad stuff.
Nothing really new. Still no job. Its frustrating you would think that people are looking for help during the holiday season but not from me? i have lots of retail experience and im like the hot potato no one wants me.
In other news i am trying my best to get past my anxiety problem i have. for those of you who are unaware i freak out when i think about going out to like bars or to social situations. I dont know what to do or how to act i try hard but i think my fear of sayi8ng something stupid causes me to say stupid things lol.
I did go out on sunday to visit thanise at the bar she works at. She had invited me a few times but i kept being busy. i was so nervous and scared getting ready and waiting to leave. It wasn't like a i have a crush what am i gonna say type of nervous just a i dont know if i will enjoy myself or if i should even go type nervous. But i went and had a great time. I think one of the best parts was that it was pretty much empty there (being a sunday) so most of the night i just sat and chit chatted with thanise. It was nice and the few people who came in were regulars and were very nice. I plan on going on sunday again. Little things like this slowely help me to get over my fear. But there are somethings i have found out lately about some people i met one of the last times i went out that kinda made things worse but i am doing my best to not let it effect me.
But I'm not gonna dwell on the past and bad stuff.
Nothing really new. Still no job. Its frustrating you would think that people are looking for help during the holiday season but not from me? i have lots of retail experience and im like the hot potato no one wants me.
In other news i am trying my best to get past my anxiety problem i have. for those of you who are unaware i freak out when i think about going out to like bars or to social situations. I dont know what to do or how to act i try hard but i think my fear of sayi8ng something stupid causes me to say stupid things lol.
I did go out on sunday to visit thanise at the bar she works at. She had invited me a few times but i kept being busy. i was so nervous and scared getting ready and waiting to leave. It wasn't like a i have a crush what am i gonna say type of nervous just a i dont know if i will enjoy myself or if i should even go type nervous. But i went and had a great time. I think one of the best parts was that it was pretty much empty there (being a sunday) so most of the night i just sat and chit chatted with thanise. It was nice and the few people who came in were regulars and were very nice. I plan on going on sunday again. Little things like this slowely help me to get over my fear. But there are somethings i have found out lately about some people i met one of the last times i went out that kinda made things worse but i am doing my best to not let it effect me.
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if i ever make it over to the windy city, you'll have to take me to this bar...if the welsh know anything, it's how to drink....
yeah. i was planning on taking a few trips next year, so i might make it over to chicago. or you'll have to come to cardiff. great fun with loads of pubs and clubs. something for everyone.