So I'm sitting here at me and Toni's apartment on christmas day. I spent last night with my mom. We went out to eat and wen to see a movie like we do every year (we saw The Chronicals of Narnia: The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe). we had a good time together. I could tell that my mom was so glad to see me but as ussual she had something to complain about but its christmas so we didnt fight.
Today me and my mom went over to Grandmas house. The rest of the family goes christmas eve but if we go it ends up in fights so we go the day of christmas. It was nice to see grandma. She isnt sick but you can tell she wont be here for to many more christmas'(I'm not sure how to make christmas plural) so i cherish every one i get to spend with her. Grandma had made diner as ussual. A nice pork roast, some corn, Kenadles (bread dumplings), and saurkraute. After food we opened what gifts there were adn we all smilled.
As is becoming ussual since grandpa passed away grandma cried a little. It hurts me to see her hurt so much. She tries to cover it up as best she can but i can see it. Not just when it comes out as crying but just in her eyes the whole day. Its hard for her adn for me too. there was a small part of me that was waiting for grandpa to come walking through the door at every moment of the day with a smile and a hug. Its been over a year and every time i think its healed up it hurts again.
Well Toni is out with her family for the weekend in the suburbs. She's been gone since friday. She went out with friends of hers from town friday night and had a great time. If i rememebr correctly yesterday she spent with her fathers side of the family and today she was with her mothers side. From what i can tell she had a great time and i was asked about all the time. She wont be coming back till tomarrow adn i work till 10:30 so i wont get to see her till 11:30ish. I miss her so much sleeping in our bed just isnt the same with out her in it. It's not just the body heat thing its the idea of her there the fealing of having some one you love close to you it's so comforting to know she is there.
Well now I'm sitting in our empty apartment listening to JOHN DENVER AND THE MUPPETS:A CHRISTMAS TOGETHER It's a album i have listened to every christmas since i was to young to remember and it brings up such fond memories of christmas past. I wish Toni was here to share this with me. I've never listened to this album with any of my ex's not even my exfiance susan. It has such an emotional attachment to me. I know it sounds like such a stupid album but i love it and I kn ow some may ay its dumb but just listening to it and writing this I've cried a few times. Several of the songs are very touching. One of the songs called THE CHRISTMAS WISH talks about how chrsitmas isnt about being religious or beliveing in jesus that all you need to do is love and be loved and thats what christmas really about. It talks about how its a time to spend with ones you love and ones who love you. I believe this more and more every year. when i first became athiest i felta little like a hypocryte about celebrating christmas but as the years have gone by i have come to discover that christmas has trancended race religion creed or anything else. Its just abotu being happy and making others happy, and right now with everything happeneing in my life the good and even the uncertainty of the future of me toni and where each of us will be living in the next few months thats what i need, .... love.
Today me and my mom went over to Grandmas house. The rest of the family goes christmas eve but if we go it ends up in fights so we go the day of christmas. It was nice to see grandma. She isnt sick but you can tell she wont be here for to many more christmas'(I'm not sure how to make christmas plural) so i cherish every one i get to spend with her. Grandma had made diner as ussual. A nice pork roast, some corn, Kenadles (bread dumplings), and saurkraute. After food we opened what gifts there were adn we all smilled.
As is becoming ussual since grandpa passed away grandma cried a little. It hurts me to see her hurt so much. She tries to cover it up as best she can but i can see it. Not just when it comes out as crying but just in her eyes the whole day. Its hard for her adn for me too. there was a small part of me that was waiting for grandpa to come walking through the door at every moment of the day with a smile and a hug. Its been over a year and every time i think its healed up it hurts again.
Well Toni is out with her family for the weekend in the suburbs. She's been gone since friday. She went out with friends of hers from town friday night and had a great time. If i rememebr correctly yesterday she spent with her fathers side of the family and today she was with her mothers side. From what i can tell she had a great time and i was asked about all the time. She wont be coming back till tomarrow adn i work till 10:30 so i wont get to see her till 11:30ish. I miss her so much sleeping in our bed just isnt the same with out her in it. It's not just the body heat thing its the idea of her there the fealing of having some one you love close to you it's so comforting to know she is there.
Well now I'm sitting in our empty apartment listening to JOHN DENVER AND THE MUPPETS:A CHRISTMAS TOGETHER It's a album i have listened to every christmas since i was to young to remember and it brings up such fond memories of christmas past. I wish Toni was here to share this with me. I've never listened to this album with any of my ex's not even my exfiance susan. It has such an emotional attachment to me. I know it sounds like such a stupid album but i love it and I kn ow some may ay its dumb but just listening to it and writing this I've cried a few times. Several of the songs are very touching. One of the songs called THE CHRISTMAS WISH talks about how chrsitmas isnt about being religious or beliveing in jesus that all you need to do is love and be loved and thats what christmas really about. It talks about how its a time to spend with ones you love and ones who love you. I believe this more and more every year. when i first became athiest i felta little like a hypocryte about celebrating christmas but as the years have gone by i have come to discover that christmas has trancended race religion creed or anything else. Its just abotu being happy and making others happy, and right now with everything happeneing in my life the good and even the uncertainty of the future of me toni and where each of us will be living in the next few months thats what i need, .... love.
As far as that muppet christmas album, thats freakin awesome! I can't believe you do that! Thats what christmas is all about for me man. Remembering past christmas memories and creating new ones for everyone else. You seem like you really understand senses tied to memories so tell me if you understand this:"This tastes like christmas!" "This smells like christmas!"