cyanide81

what i wouldnt give to take a look inside my head.

one day im good, the next im not.

wtf?!

it gets old

today: neutral. neither good or bad

im actualy in a much better mood the last couple days. i dunno why exactly, but who cares?

I think its just following a long pattern in my life, where i will go thru phases when im depressed, whether theres a reason or not, and then phases when im ok.

the last few months have been the worst, but it looks like im finally moving...
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Ahem

http://www.brokendays.com

still not complete yet, but its official!

I'm sorta kinda working on a new website right now for my portfolio.

I'm not actually making it, just uploading to it, which is great, cause its a hell of a lot easier and less time consuming than making my own site.

It's using http://otherpeoplespixels.com/ recommended by junglkitty

Right now, im just using a free trial, but if i like it, i'll get my own...
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i called my ex yesterday, and it went very well.

well, sorta

we were never on bad terms at all, but we just avoided each other, and now i think we're gonna be ok as friends.

which is ok with me, but i dont see any chance of us getting back together. she says shes not ready for a serious relationship, and she knows i...
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went to the doctor today for some nasal congestion that wont go away, and talked to him about a few other things.


im tired of feeling the way i do, emotionally, and physically. so im gonna try to get myself motivated to improve on myself physically, eating right, exercising, etc.

and i decided i'm gonna see a psychologist occasionally, because ive tried and tried, and...
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oh my god. im becoming such cliche emo lately. and its not on purpose for the image or whatever.

but i am incredibly miserable lately, there isnt anything that seems to make me happy, and the only thing, or person, who can, isnt possible.

i really feel like just giving up on everything. and what i mean by that i dont even know. but i...
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never go to vegas alone.