I rarely EVER smile, unless im laughing about something. Its not that I'm always depressed, its just not in my nature to smile much.
but thats changing. i actually have stuff to smile about!
Things are going great with Lara, my new gf. Although, she's going back to Mexico soon, so we're still unsure about what will happen to us. But wither way, ive been...
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but thats changing. i actually have stuff to smile about!
Things are going great with Lara, my new gf. Although, she's going back to Mexico soon, so we're still unsure about what will happen to us. But wither way, ive been...
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to those of you who responded to my last journal, thank you very much, and im sorry that i havent really responded. not that i was a very active responder or anything before, but i havent been active on here at ALL lately. been too depressed to even socialize on the internet, which is probably kinda sad.
BUT, in spite of my last entry declaring...
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BUT, in spite of my last entry declaring...
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deny:
I can definately understand where you're coming from... I get like that when I feel depressed. Sometimes I just don't have anything TO say. I hope things work out for you guys. That would be interesting for both of you to be able to go back and forth to see each other. Of course, I would love to be able to travel to another country so that's just my opinion. Best wishes and take care sweetie!!
XO
XO
im gonna be alone forever.
its as simple as that
its as simple as that
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sharona1881:
*HUGS* we always think that... and then we are surprised when we meet someone amazing... *HUGS* faith in that is SO hard, i know... 
lilviciousone:
Keep your chin up.
Update time, mr. Cyanide!
Update time, mr. Cyanide!
i've been so miserable for the better part of this year, that i've come to a conclusion.
even though it means leaving the safety of my home,a nd my friends, someday, i REALLY REALLY want to move to hawaii, and just get away from my troubles, start life anew. i lived there for more than 6 years when i was a kid, and it was...
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even though it means leaving the safety of my home,a nd my friends, someday, i REALLY REALLY want to move to hawaii, and just get away from my troubles, start life anew. i lived there for more than 6 years when i was a kid, and it was...
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deny:
Haha... Yeah, I definately need a vacation. And there's so much culture there to learn about and experience. I probably wouldn't want to leave. 
deny:
I need something new... I don't know what yet but, anything different than the past few years have been. Soon, one thing I'm totally insane about is that I will finally be debt free... I can't wait. It will be such a relief. Hope everything works out and you get to go to Hawaii soon!!
well, im trying to talk myself into sucking it up, facing the unknown, risking my financial future, and going back to school
its gonna suck cause i wont have time to do anything but work eat sleep and go to school, but if i can talk myself into it, in the long run itl be much better
itll help my confidence, my self esteem, and...
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its gonna suck cause i wont have time to do anything but work eat sleep and go to school, but if i can talk myself into it, in the long run itl be much better
itll help my confidence, my self esteem, and...
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kindle:
Have you thought about online schooling? I do that and still have plenty of time for a full time job.
s:
What's up bro . . been a while.
~Sean
~Sean
for anyone who doesnt know, i have a website. my own dot com. its basically my online art portfolio with my artwork, photography, etc.
since i dont really advertise it much (aside from the addy in my profile pic ), it still gets some visitors. probably mostly from SG. well, possibly. but anyways, i was looking at the visitors that my site has recieved, and...
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since i dont really advertise it much (aside from the addy in my profile pic
), it still gets some visitors. probably mostly from SG. well, possibly. but anyways, i was looking at the visitors that my site has recieved, and... Read More
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kindle:
That's some awesome artwork!
kindle:
Update!
i think i may have changed a direction in my life. not about my personal life, that still sucks to no end, but as far as what i want to do for a career. or at least for something fun.
i decided i want to work in filmmaking. One of my best friends has always wanted to do it, and i started getting more and...
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i decided i want to work in filmmaking. One of my best friends has always wanted to do it, and i started getting more and...
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plaidhangover:
Both of thoes are great movies!!!
Film making would rock hard core, I think it would be so fun! A friend and I came up with a great movie! When you become rich and famous maybe we will sell you the rights to it...
Film making would rock hard core, I think it would be so fun! A friend and I came up with a great movie! When you become rich and famous maybe we will sell you the rights to it...
user304975207:
do whatever makes you happy. thats the important thing.
bah, im a pity whore
that last journal was NOT a suicide note. believe me. wont happen in a million years
that last journal was NOT a suicide note. believe me. wont happen in a million years
plaidhangover:
Shaun of the Dead rocked!!! I honestly loved that movie. My brother's b-day is September 10th and Im Sept. 8th, so for our birthdays we both got S.o.t.D for eachother! It was pretty funny!
Have a good weekend!
Have a good weekend!
kindle:
Hey there, just checking in on you. I can't stop the countdown . It's like a weird... thing! I don't know how to explain it. It gives me something to look forward to. Take care of yourself and don't be a stranger.
. It's like a weird... thing! I don't know how to explain it. It gives me something to look forward to. Take care of yourself and don't be a stranger. why am i the worlds doormat?
evry girl ive ever dated has just totally fucked with me. its pathetic really.
i just found out that my ex is now engaged to my replacement.
She told me that she broke up with me because i wanted too much, and that i probably had marriage in mind. and thats not what shes looking for. she doesnt want...
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evry girl ive ever dated has just totally fucked with me. its pathetic really.
i just found out that my ex is now engaged to my replacement.
She told me that she broke up with me because i wanted too much, and that i probably had marriage in mind. and thats not what shes looking for. she doesnt want...
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user304975207:
seriously. if you need someone to talk to, im here. i dont know exactly how all of that feels....but i know how a lot of bad shit feels.
seriously. if you need someone to talk to, im here. i dont know exactly how all of that feels....but i know how a lot of bad shit feels. 
einahpets:
This is totally random, but I came across your journal and felt the need to comment. I go through the whole "oh my god, i'm going to alone forever and i'm never going to have a good career, etc" thing all the time. I just hope you're feeling better.
Wow, the new design of the site looks awesome. took a few days to figure out how to use it. And took a few days for things to be workiing properly too.
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I got a speeding ticket yesterday! 37 in a 25 zone. EVERYONE goes 35-ish on that street. BAH
anyone have an idea how much its going to be?
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I got a speeding ticket yesterday! 37 in a 25 zone. EVERYONE goes 35-ish on that street. BAH
anyone have an idea how much its going to be?
kindle:
Probably like $50-$100 would be my guess. Hope everything is going well otherwise
plaidhangover:
I hate the idea of change, so now that Im back online I need to sit down and take an hour or two to figure this site out! Im lost!!! I hope you are ready for all my dumb questions!
Hope you've had a great holiday sweetie... Glad to hear you're happy!! Ooh, she's pretty!! Best wishes to both of you and have an Awesome New Year's!!
and happy happy to you too. Maybe this year wont suck.